I hope you read that in the Professor’s voice. Well I just wanted to update how I’ve been feeling. The emotional numbness isn’t so bad anymore! I mean it’s still there, but not as bad as before. I feel like I got my muchness back. At least 95% of me. I’m still talking to a therapist, I’ve been told that the ideations were just intrusive thoughts, something I’ve never really realized I’ve dealt with til now. I went to a doctor to talk about the numbness, and he completely dismissed everything I had to say about it, which makes me think it’s time for a new doctor 🫠
But all in all I’ve improved. I’ve been sticking to the hobbies I love doing, I’ve been going to bed at decent hours and getting enough sleep, I’ve been drinking water and trying to eat properly, also been using grounding techniques here and to remind myself that this feeling is only temporary and anxiety is not me. I’m me. I can’t let that feeling overwhelm and control me. I feel… good. Thank you all soooooo much for the words of encouragement!