Today is the first time I have posted since joining. I am so afraid of being judged that I have not had the courage to share, even here!

[Polkadottail]

I think my depression and anxiety have heightened to a point where I can hardly focus on tasks. My brain spins through scenarios that just occurred like it is recapping the moment and it just gets stuck in a loop. Is this ADHD or something like that or is it depression? Does this happen to anyone else?

[Nothing_but_books]

Look up "rumination."

[DaveMc6725]

Hi Polkadottail, This, to me, sounds like your anxiety causing these recaps and reliving scenarios over and over again. I get similar feelings when events have happened and seem to get stuck in the moment instead of just letting be and moving on with life. The way I deal with it it to make my anxiety a real character and to mentally speak to it and sometime to "put it in its place" and let it know my normal mind is the real me not my anxious mind.

Try meditation and mind quieting techniques such as reading, exercise or music and let your anxious mind know who's the real you!!

Good luck and remember anxiety isn't a real this it's just your mind being an overactive 🤬🤬🤬🤬!! Dave👍

[tommy2toes]

Hi There Polkadottail

I am new around here myself. Personally, I am not in the business of judging folks. Like everyone else here, I just want to rein in my depression and get on with the remainder of my life. Remember, none of us fights these battles alone.

Best of luck

t2t (tommy2toes).

[Hidden]

Hi Polkadottail, it sounds like anxiety to me. I have anxiety and my brain goes through the same loop every single day, many times per day. I've talked to my therapist about it ad nauseam since I started seeing her in January 2023. I'm seeing her today and going to point blank ask her for a way to get out of this loop. I can't stand it anymore. It makes me want to end my life. I'm reading a book called "Rewire Your Anxious Brain" by Catherine M. Pittman, MD. It explains it perfectly and offers tips like meditation and breathing. It's hard to focus on breathing when your brain is going 1,000 mph but I've been trying it this week. This group is a great place to get support. I hope you have a good day.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hey Barloki

You sound very much like what I’ve gone through for much of my life. When I was diagnosed, I was told my brain works 100 miles an hour faster than most normal people, meditation breathing things like that were extremely difficult for me to Lasso, especially when I’m reaching out for people close to me to help me try to figure out solutions to the pain. I was totally oblivious to a lot of the Acceptance theories that I have learned here in the last seven months, so I was just trying to find anything to soften the pain to rain in my brain and anything else that I was experiencing including depression. I’m having trouble grasping the premise on excepting your anxiety, the way like I said many people talk about . The last 25 years were hell for me also and I was at the end of my rope which sounds like you are too so I went to hospital and I found 90% relief through medication changes. They said that I was severely under medicated for all those years .

We obviously know that everybody is different and solutions are very much different from person to person, but I am a firm believer that we have chemical imbalances, wires that are not quite connected, that need to be connected through medication. Finding that proper cocktail of meds , at least, in my experience, is an intricate and complicated and in many times a frustrating path.

Obviously hindsight is 2020 but I regret not being more aggressive for any of those years Because of my suffering.

My brain is still ultra active but I can control it to a certain extent because I feel better. Your plight sounds very much in line with mine so for what it’s worth keep trying to find the proper medication‘s to to connect those wires, unless you can do it through your own acceptance of your of your of your symptoms, which so far I’m having trouble grasping as I mentioned

Great luck to you and love

[CalmSeeker1]

Hi Polkadottail - I have the same challenge. My anxiety causes me to ruminate and go over things again and again. I blow each detail out of proportion and it becomes a catastrophe in my mind with me ending up looking like a complete idiot or failure. My anxious and depressed mind is very good at lying to me and replaying recent and old situations on a screen in my head. Brings up feelings of guilt, shame, loss, fear, dread etc. It's a horrible cycle that is sometimes hard to get out of. I try to bring myself back to the current moment in time and focus on one little thing I can do right now. Go for a short walk, brush my teeth, get on this form, attend an online support group, call someone, listen to music, pet the dog. Anything that brings my attention to right now. Please continue to share with this group - it does really help to normalize what you are going through. There is peace in knowing you are not alone and hearing what has worked for others.

[Agora1]

Hi Polkadottail...I'm so happy to see you on site. This is one of the safest, nonjudgmental

forums around. We're here because we want to be. We care because we understand.

We support because we feel your pain. Welcome my new friend. You are Home xx

[bonkers65 in reply to Agora1]

I double that Agora

[Agora1 in reply to bonkers65]

THank you bonkers.. xx

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

You are among friends. I would say anxiety and depression. Both can get in your nerves and use your past as a weapon and weld it against you. Usually at 3am while you're trying to sleep. Probably because everything is quite. And your depressed brain can show you some of your greatest hits. Like you said get stuck in this loop of cringe, regret, sadness and envisioning an alternate reality where maybe you did something different. Then you play out that scenario in your head. Sometimes we worry about things like having a conversation with someone and doing these made scenarios of how they will react to us expressing our feelings. Usually it's in the negative. We hurt our own feelings sometimes with these scenarios that never even happened.

It's that we feel like they could because we believe we are not worthy to be heard or understood.

It's called rumination. It's hard to break but it can be done with interrupting the thought process.