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[Yehaw]

this will be removed but I can’t handle it. Goodbye everyone.

[cliniciangirl]

hey are you ok

[Yehaw in reply to cliniciangirl]

No but that’s okay.

[Agora1 in reply to Yehaw]

No it's not okay. We care xx

[Yehaw in reply to Agora1]

It’s feels strange

[CatsandCheese]

TALK to us. Great people here. Understanding, accepting, respectful and nonjudgmental. You are in a good place.

[Yehaw in reply to CatsandCheese]

Whenever I try to explain it feels like complaining over meanness things

[CatsandCheese in reply to Yehaw]

Keep talking. It helps. A lot of us have been there. Call Emergency services if need be. Survival is #1. You have to be safe first. You are not a failure or a problem, etc. etc. Someone made you feel that way. It's distorted thinking.

[Yehaw in reply to CatsandCheese]

That’s what I’m being told it is. Idk. Last time I went in patient they took away my coping skills.

[CatsandCheese in reply to Yehaw]

I know they temporarily take away your freedom. Coping skills, once learned, just need to be remembered and practiced.

Keep reaching out. 🫂

[Yehaw in reply to CatsandCheese]

Stuff like writing tho

[majones_0608]

I hope and pray you will be ok. Feel free to send me a message when you need to talk. It is important you don' t give up. Feel free to vent all you want. I know life can seem bad at times, but you are important to the world.

[Yehaw in reply to majones_0608]

I failed. I’m alive.

[majones_0608 in reply to Yehaw]

You can tell me/us what you failed at. This is an open community. But I am glad you are alive and I hope and pray you will keep living.

[majones_0608 in reply to majones_0608]

Are you sure you failed? Maybe that is not the right word? Did you not succeed at something? Keep in mind, that when 1 door closes another opens.

[Yehaw in reply to majones_0608]

It’s definitely failure. I seriously can not handle the pain of life. I need it to end.

[majones_0608 in reply to Yehaw]

There have been times when I have felt as if I may not be able to handle the pain, but I refused to let myself give up. Have you tried talking to a counselor or have you seen a psychiatrist? I currently have both and they really help me.

[Yehaw in reply to majones_0608]

I have a therapist currently.

[majones_0608 in reply to Yehaw]

Good. I hope you keep talking to your therapist. Can you increase your meetings with him/her? Perhaps you could ask this person about seeing a psychiatrist. My psychiatrist really helps me. They can often help a lot of people.

[Yehaw in reply to majones_0608]

Not really more often sadly,

[Yehaw]

I’m sorry for posting that.

[Agora1 in reply to Yehaw]

Never be sorry in reaching out for help. You have so many people

who care in this community. You are not alone xx

[RS1974]

Sweetie talk to me. You'll be ok don't end your life.

[Yehaw in reply to RS1974]

It won’t be okay tho. It gets better for a bit and worse and it’s always like that. That’s life hoping the small moments of good are good.

[Nothing_but_books]

I just visited your home page and read "I want to get better." That desire is still part of you. Getting better doesn't "come." It takes time and work. Getting support helps.

[Yehaw in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I really am trying to get suppott

[Nothing_but_books]

This is a great site to get online support. Keep writing.

I see you're in the U.S. If you call 211 and ask what support groups are near you, that's a start. Then ask for referrals to a therapist.

[Yehaw in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I have a therapist not much more he can do then what he’s doing

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Yehaw]

If you are making progress there, you can explain you're in crisis and ask to come in more often.

[Yehaw in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I have.

[bethelbee]

How are you doing today? There are many of us that have been where you are now . Do you have family support at all? I'm glad you reached out here. We care!!

[Yehaw in reply to bethelbee]

Sort of. I do im really struggling with the invalidating mindset of “there not actually suciidal because there still alive,” “people who actually want to die; die.”