Coping with worsening depression

[Konagirl01]

Hi everyone, I’m new here and this is my first post. I’ve dealt with a low level depression and anxiety since I was a kid, although I didn’t realize what the issue was back then.

I have a lot of ups and downs...sometimes I have really good days and I’m so thankful for that. I try to really stay in the present on those days and just appreciate every moment...

I was on meds at two different times and also have seen therapists off and on over the years. I got off my meds a few years ago because I felt really numb and still a bit down so I figured I would just try to exercise more and eat healthy and just work through my issues on my own...but lately I have more bad days than good ones. I feel removed, sad, and just out of sorts. I have a lot of negative thoughts...I don’t feel good about myself.

I joined this group because sometimes there is some solace in knowing you aren’t alone.

Some days I sleep most of the day once my kids are off to school and husband is at work. I get up, tidy up my house, shower and act like all is well once they walk though the door...but on the inside I’m suffering.

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Welcome ✨

[Konagirl01 in reply to brokenlight]

Thank you ❤️

[Em17y]

I just joined a day ago and let me just say that you are definitely not alone. I joined or the same reason that I just hoped to find people that understand what I’m going through and just honestly people to talk to also. Being endlessly exhausted when in a rut is so debilitating. I find when I start to fall into a rut I through out all my coping strategies that made me feel a little better in the first place and just falling down deeper... maybe taking off of trying to seem perfect and doing a more appearance based self care day would help even something as small as doing your makeup nice or doing a face mask or if you have the energy to go out and buy yourself a new top or piece of jewelry just to spark a little love for yourself even if it is superficial will remind you that your negative thoughts are not the truth and that you are worth it and don’t need to feel 100% all the time and that’s ok... sending lots of support I hope that you soon see the light at the end of your rut

[Konagirl01 in reply to Em17y]

Em17y thank you so much. Yes it does feel debilitating at times and I think you are right, I need a little more self care and I need to remember that it’s okay to not be “okay”.

You are not alone either, and I hope you will remember that you are stronger than even your worst day. Thanks for your kind words Em ❤️

[Hidden]

This group changed my life in such a short time. I too have struggled my whole life with anxiety and depression. Just being able to share it openly here with compassionate people who completely understand has helped me know I can always post here whenever I feel lost. I hope it does the same for you. Welcome 💛

[Konagirl01 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much! It is so nice to just be able to openly express how I’m feeling. Thank you for the warm welcome ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Konagirl01]

Always. We are always here. PM me anytime 💛

[Konagirl01 in reply to Hidden]

Same here ❤️