I'm a burden to everyone with that mental health. But i can't heal - subscribed to online therapy (as i can't walk) but it's not helping

[Against_the_current]

She yelled at me "from you i want to just lay in bed, we do everything, we go through challenges, from your worrying about us, i get nothing but more nerves trying to calm you down, from you i just want to calm tf down and don't annoy me more"

[Vonus5591]

you need support and understanding and asking for it is in care. Take great care of yourself

promise to look after yourself

[Against_the_current in reply to Vonus5591]

Thank you. I really need care, not only physically but mentally as well

[CLB1125]

I feel so bad for your situation. Don’t give up on the therapy. It takes time to establish a relationship with your therapist. Remember they don’t know you or your family. They need time to get to know you and your life dynamic. Therapy is not an automatic fix. Be patient. Do you have any friends that might be interested in being roommates with a place of your own?

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

Thank you. I tried to find some but they have boyfriends and would rather live with them. I'm abandoned by friends rn

[SoporRose]

AtC,

Good therapy (and I know you’ve only had experiences with awful therapists) won’t help for some time — weeks, months maybe. You and your therapist have to get to know each other. Your problems are long-standing and complex and your therapist probably doesn’t have a magic wand. Your therapist will not be able to fix or change your family.

What your therapist *can* do is help you identify ways to change to become your better self, to let your strength re-assert itself, to identify reachable goals, to re-learn how to be self-reliant. Therapy is hard and is a process. Don’t give up. Stick with a therapist for at least half a year. Be willing to listen to and really consider truths you might not want to hear.

You can do this. You have endured so much and, in so many ways, particularly at school, flourished. You have incredible strength in your mind and your soul. I have faith in you!

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you! I feel bad i won't be able to pay for half an year

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

If you give up your bedsit, could you use that money for therapy? Might your dad have more translation work you could do for him? What about doing some on-line tutoring for people learning English? You could definitely be a huge help to students learning the language. You are more capable than you feel you are.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Where can i teach? Also a bit hard from home, i haven't even done my exam assignments from all the drama here. If dad stops my money for the place, he won't give them to me. I'm graduating so he will stop them. Also getting away is the best therapy, i just need a bigger place and a friend visiting. One month home, everyone's going mental

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I don't know what to tell you. I don't ever seem to have any advice that works for you, so I'll just keep saying what I believe: you can and will eventually find a way to make a life for yourself away from your parents. You are smart, talented, driven to succeed in school, and when you find a job, I think you will put the energy you poured into getting your education into your work. I have faith in you.