Feeling frustrated and experiencing anxiety

[Mohammad-341]

i am from india with my help my younger sister got married to india based boy who has been a UK citizen for more than 15 years . after marriage both of them made a very close nexus and disrespected me at home and outside home openly . i did a lot for my sister , she was a bad character from indian culture point of vied , had been have so many sexual relationship, i provide her psychological couselling when she was in depression when one of her boyfriend left her after one week of marriage , i helped her in clearing school even if she left it many time . i spent all my life for easing the burden of my father child factory he produced 7 children including me. now when she is settled in UK and one of my younger brother is also about to settle there. i feel jealous and frustrated .

i had been having a golder career working with with top 3 of software company of the world but i broke down and could not keep the learning pace.

now i repent and feel devastated . writing her help to let the ventilation happen.

[CLB1125]

I'm sorry you are being treated this way. I myself have had heartbreaking times with with my family. We assume our family will always be supported but that's far from true. Sometimes they are our worst enemies. I guess they think it's ok and we will automatically forgive them. Try to look forward to your future and not dwell on it. I decided it was time for me. I don't bother with my siblings anymore. They always know where I am when they need something. I don't go out of my way to offer my help anymore.

[MimiSpree]

I am so glad you're venting! It helps! And you made me feel better about venting, so thank you.

Betrayal is the worst offense a human can commit. Because we can't look to the ones who betrayed us to redeem themselves, we have to look only to ourselves to improve our situations. The "apologies" or "understanding" of those callous enough to betray, are meaningless.

I feel I have betrayed myself by staying too long with deceit and betrayal. I want to understand why I did that, and heal by having faith to say, "No. I do not accept," and move forward in strength. I'm not there yet, but at least now I understand I have to learn a new perspective, and I know what that is.

My heart is with you.

[hypercat54]

What's stopping you from applying to come here also?

Don't however expect a land of milk and honey though or paradise as we have lots of issues here.

[Mohammad-341 in reply to hypercat54]

It's not easy to find job alone for me without any help