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[PeaceNeed]

I feel disconnected from everything. I feel cant take care of myself any more. I want to go to nursing home. Just sit on front of tv till god takes me.

I hope its not long. I give up I cant do this anymore.

[Sunrisetabby]

Based on your previous post, it looked like you enjoyed a hike upstate a couple of days ago. Perhaps it would be good for you to get out for another hike by yourself or with a group. There are lots of meetups you can join, or if you don't drive, Harriman state park is accessible from the city by train.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Sunrisetabby]

Hiked many places when younger. Cant walk well now.

[Sunrisetabby in reply to PeaceNeed]

One of the funnier things I've heard, and so funny that I don't remember it, I think was an interview Dan Harris did with the Dalia Lama. The Dali Lama talked about liking to watch peaceful animals on tv, maybe the discovery channel, but only deer and squirrels or something but definitely not predators. I'm fortunate that even when I don't strength to get out of bed my cat often finds me. I also have a little turtle that has brought me a surprising amount of joy as well as some birds outside my window. Hopefully you still have some birds or squirrels that you can see. I recently bought a white noise machine and somehow can't sleep with it but I found just listening to the sounds of rain and the beach can be soothing when I'm wallowing in my misery in bed.

[gajh]

Is it really a possibility for you to go into a nursing home? Is that an option for you? You don't just sit in front of a tv. There are group activities and visiting with other residents. If it is an option, you should consider it. I bet you would be much happier being there than where you are now.

[PeaceNeed in reply to gajh]

I would be happier if i was still able to live on my own with out sky high anxiety and dark deep depression tinged with brow beating guilt and regret.

[gajh in reply to PeaceNeed]

Yes of course, but if you have to live with anxiety, depression, guilt, and regret anyways it might be nice to be in a supportive environment.

[PeaceNeed in reply to gajh]

Gajh,Ive worked in ny nursing homes. They are run like for profit businesses. I would have a roof over my head and thats better than being inhoused.

[gajh in reply to PeaceNeed]

I just hope you are able to get into the best situation that is possible for you. I know that you are suffering.

[PeaceNeed in reply to gajh]

Its past suffering. My body is breaking down along with my mind.

[gajh in reply to PeaceNeed]

My heart goes out to you.

[CLB1125]

Im sorry you are in such pain but before making such a drastic move weigh the pros and cons of such a move. Giving up most of your possessions. More or less losing your privacy. Maybe an assisted living facility might be the answer for you. You would still have your own place but people available to you for help. I hope you find peace.

[BedBug]

I agree assisted living might be a good option for you. I worked in several different ones and are not for everyone. Please weigh your choices carefully. What works for one may not work for another. Good luck.

[PeaceNeed in reply to BedBug]

I feel i cant take care of myself anymore just when the world has turned really bad. Im stuck emotionally and have trouble moving forward.

[BedBug]

Have you been examined by a doctor to see if you are incapable of getting care of yourself? Sometimes we think we can't do something because we tell ourselves that without trying. I know because I tend to do this. I talk to God and ask him to give me the strength to keep going. I have to start small and work up. Some days are better than others. It will get better. Know that you are not.