I have a lot to say but I guess, words aren't enough to describe how lonely, painful and hurt I am. There is a sense of heaviness in the centre of my chest. The pain, that I can't describe.
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Thank you so much dear π Means a lot really.
"....You are not alone. I'm here...."
This is such a simple and basic support that we all humans have the power to offer each other. If someone would have said this to us in the right time, we would not have been in this place.
But now, I guess, we all have been brought up here, together, by the Almighty so that we can offer each other what others couldn't; the warmth, the love and the support that we have always needed and craved for.
I can relate to what you have described. In my personal opinion due to my pain from my dysfunctional upbringing, I never felt loved. As I have over the years been able to examine my parents lives they never felt loved either. That is why I eventually been able to forgive them. I believe we all are essentially spiritual beings needing and looking for love. I never found it in my family, a husband or even church. I just in the past few years got desperate enough after my fiancee's suicide got on my knees and cried out to God (or whoever you want to call Him/Her, Creator, Source, Spirit, Higher Power etc) and said "I need your help"!!It has been a good journey of seeking and discovery. I am slowly healing and feeling more peace everyday. Everyone's discovery and spiritual journey is unique and each one of us has to come into on their own.. Unfortunately my path started after a severe painful crisis.. I hope you find peace on your journey and can start to heal.. Much love!ππ
This is so wholesome π₯Ί I feel like hugging you right now π«
I too have craved for a love that is selfless, non-demanding and whole. My parents do love me but there still is some kind of void.
By reading what you wrote, I suppose somewhere or the other, everyone is craving for some sort of love; some crave it more, some less.
In the past few years, my bond with the Almighty has strengthened and I have reduced complaining, "why me? " and I think I have made a huge progress uptill here. Hope to completely stop this reduction one day.
I wish healing for us.
Much love β€
I can relate to that pain. I meditate and pray often. I wasn't deeply loved in my childhood by my Mother. I feel it left this wound in my heart. I was never able to find a loving relationship and the loneliness I feel is torture. In meditation I feel peace and love for myself.
I tried meditating but it started to have a complete opposite effect on me. I felt anxious, disturbed and distracted during the procedure unlike what people describe is a peaceful journey.
What you experienced is very common when you first start doing it but keep doing it and you will start to get glimpses of peace. There is a common misconception about it that it is all calmness and bliss but the opposite is true. It's about sitting and being with your anxious busy mind and letting it be busy and learning that you can detach from it and just sit with yourself and have moments of being present. you can focus on your breath or even count your breath if it helps you and try to resist judging yourself while you are doing it. Eventually you will start to realize the benefits of doing it but it takes time and practice.
I'm so sorry and totally get that feeling - is sucks. I hope you are feeling better today.
I can understand and relate,I wish all of us could have happiness
You will be ok. Maybe you can volunteer in a area that interests you. Children daycare or church organization can always use some help. You will find some fulfillment in volunteering. Keep in touch and God Bless.
I can really relate and wanted to offer hugs! You sound like a delightful person.
I pray you feel better soon!