I need support. So does mom. Really sick. I can't deal with my three illnesses and hers as well. Even my therapist is grumpy

[Against_the_current]

I have sprained knee, cough and fever and severe mental health issues. Mom's going crazy. I tiptoe around her. Please i need to feed better. I need support

[Celtic27]

Hi there sorry to hear of yours and your mums health problems for starter i think its about time you change you doctor you want one that has your interests at heart not someone with health problems of there own ! I guess youve got depression and anxiety as has has your mum that doesnt make for a good healthy enviroment as you are needing help so you cant help each other as you would like to ! Please take care of yourself and hope you get well soon !

[Against_the_current in reply to Celtic27]

Thanks. I'm scared it won't. In this country doctors really don't care. My parents are vets and pharmacists and they don't even go to doctors if it's not an emergency. Just give me antibiotics as if the world's ending

[davidthecoder]

Hi Against_the_current,

You definitely have our support and understanding here.

I know you are having a terrible time right now, especially being sick and the sprained knee. I guess the one thing I wanted to say here is that you are stronger than you think you are, and you will get through this. You will beat the cough and fever, and your knee will heal. The body is very resilient.

While I realize there will still be challenges ahead even once you have healed, at least it will be two less things you will have to deal with.

Also you are always welcome to message me and chat if you are looking to make friends around here.

[TheLongDream in reply to davidthecoder]

Hello. I got so surprised to see, that Against_the_Currant is from Bulgaria, like me. Yet she has written her pain out three years ago. Still,I hope she is doing better, actually as good as could, and would love to hear from. I'm very lonesome myself, it happens very rarely to be able to speak with someone in my mother's tongue. I go out very rare, have no friends neither here, nor in the web.. It's another level of being lonesome, when I can't find and make friends not only in my hometown and country, but when I can't find a single person, who would like to be my friend in the whole world, I just wonder what's wrong with me, why am I broken. Like a toy, with a factory defect. I apologize for bothering. Good night.

[davidthecoder in reply to TheLongDream]

Welcome TheLongDream,

You have not bothered at all, it is good you are here with the group. About feeling defective, well...I suppose we all have flaws. There are many people considered highly successful, and beloved, and yet they too feel defective. This is common in the human experience. It is difficult to overcome, but it is important to know that we all have flaws. I do not believe that a perfect person exists.

Also I am glad you found someone from your country as well. What is it like living in Bulgaria?

[Against_the_current in reply to davidthecoder]

It's hell when it comes to mental health and money. More secure than America and west Europe, lower praises and lower salaries.

[Against_the_current in reply to TheLongDream]

3 days ago. But yeah i started like 3 years ago. Tbh didn't expect other Bulgarians because here mental health is less of a priority than than anything. The whole factory is broken dear. The whole post communism factory is a horror factory making horror dolls

[Against_the_current in reply to davidthecoder]

Thank you so much. I need it really

[TheLongDream]

Здравей. Мисля, че много от нас тук постоянно и с последни изцедени сили плуваме, цапкаме някак, или се отпускаме и потъваме, изтощени до отвъд преки сили. Пък и не всеки умее да плува. Силно се надявам да отговориш, толкова рядко ми се случва да мога разговарям с Българи. Не че не съм от България. Просто нямам приятели. Никога не съм. Вероятно дори вече не използваш приложението. Извинявам се, че преминаха на 'ти', просто, извинявам се. Пиши, ако.

[Against_the_current in reply to TheLongDream]

Оле, за пръв път виждам друг българин тук. Свикнах да си изливам душата на английски. Честно казано, американците и британците, каквито са повечето тук, разбират. Българите само знаят "стегне се ма". България няма mental health hygiene. И аз нямам никакви приятели. Свикнах да говоря на английски. Те ме разбират. Пробвала съм и български форуми и ми е идело да се заколя от тях. Пиша аз "майка ми е алкохоличка, разчитам само на сестра си, а тя иска да ходи в Германия и се побъркам ". Пише ми няква българо-туркиня "дай рождената дата на сестра ти. Да предстой й". Изпадам в състояние неописуемо за психологията като наука. Тъпачка и ми вика "ти не искаше ли тва". Не , искам да ти извия врата. Мразя източноевропейския манталитет на пияници и скотове, без никаква представа за психично здраве и тук ми е escape -a. Българите ги интересува да имат храна, пиене и чалга, психичното здраве са "лиготии"

[TheLongDream in reply to Against_the_current]

Аз също ненавиждам този бг манталитет. Между другото, радвам се да се запознаем, така да се каже. Нали няма да е обидно ако мина на 'ти'?Ако имате нещо против, просто ми кажете Също като теб, свикнала съм да говоря за проблемите си на английски. Ако изобщо говоря. Това е доста ново за мен, не съм свикнала да говоря за тях. И аз не очаквах да срещна някого от България, затова и така се зарадвах, като прочетох откъде си. Наистина тук просто ти казват 'стегни се ма', 'земи се в ръце', т. нар. Терапевти сядат срещу мен и ме оставят да си говоря на самотек, все едно не си говоря достатъчно сама с домашното животинче, и със себе си. Благодаря, че отговорихте. Значи много да мен. Свикнала съм да ме игнорират, така че - искрено благодаря. Ще се радвам да поговорим за..каквото и да било.

[Against_the_current in reply to TheLongDream]

Много мило. И няма проблем на ти. Ох, същата работа - терапевтите в България не струват. Три години работя с една само аз говоря. И дори когато се усетя и я помоля да каже нещо "какво искаш да ти кажа" и "какво си представяш че ще ти кажа". В България вместо да взимат лицензи както в щатите, тука са като култисти в различни школи и квото школата каже, тва е. А, тва, че го е мислил някъв ненормалник преди 200 години, пука им. За едно и също нещо две психоложки от две различни школи са ми казвали различни неща. Много имам нужда от американски психолог. За тва и искам да се върна към BetterHelp или друг ресурс. Не издържам. Много съм болна и тая токсична обстановка и тоя стрес не ми помагат. Те не разбират, че не съм за анализиране и промяна, а за кризисна интервенция. Мозъкът ми го чувствам изпържен. Просто малко подкрепа за начало, няма нужда да ме разнищват. Правят ме на две стотинки тия харпии

[SoporRose]

Wow!

AtC: Here’s The Long Dream, also from Bulgaria, wanting to connect! Yes! I hope the two of you can share resources and support. We’ll still be here for you, but I know you’ve been wanting someone who can understand your situation better than a lot of us can.

I hope you’re starting to feel a bit better, you and your family.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I had a similar friend. Actually im surprised to see another Bulgarian. But I'm really happy with you guys, the western approach to mental health is different. It's saving me. I really want...no need a Western therapist. Even my boyfriend is west European. In Bulgaria either nobody gives a damn about mental health or we're on our knees. 3 years nobody from even east Europe. People really say about me that i have western mentality. My highschool taught me that way, the internet, my own intelligence, my hatred for communism. My ex roommate even joked about me "where will your next boyfriend be from? Mars?" When i had an American from here. I wonder how he's doing but he's not active here anymore and we stopped talking because he was tired of me and mom's issues 😔I really don't want to lose more relationships because of mom

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I don’t think you have to lose relationships because of your mom. Choose carefully how much you share. Be honest, but talk about lots of other things, too.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I just compulsively share it and drive everyone away

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I get the need to unload and vent. But you can learn to share a little and then listen in your turn. That would be a clear, specific goal with which your therapists might be able to help you. It would be something they could understand an da step toward the kind of life you want, with friends and romantic partners. As always, I have faith in you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thanks. Really struggling rn, mom drinking and listening to terrible music rn and im triggered. Got meds i used in the hospital coz i thought they help more but im just sleepy and still panicking. I can't be normal with her

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Yeah. That's why you have to get away somehow. It’s almost impossible to escape when you’re not well, but you won’t get well until you escape, but how can you escape when you feel so awful — and round and round. But I do believe that, at some point, you’ll find s way to get off the carousel.

I’m glad you have the compassion to see that your mom needs support, too. I hope she’ll find what she needs as well.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Yeah , here mom abused me again, my accommodation is you know small and hard to maintain. Idk where to live. Especially when I heal. And graduate

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

In what way did your mom abuse you? Should you call the police or an abuse hotline? I'm worried about you.

[Swilly97]

I'm sorry, that's a lot. Sending you healing vibes ✨️ 💛. Huggggggggggg

[Against_the_current in reply to Swilly97]

Hugs 😭🫂🤗