Hello everyone

[Jennblank7734]

I hope today is a good day. I'm with my puppies. They will be a year old tomorrow.

I've been reading a lot on empathy. I feel like these papers and articles can't be serious. I feel silly to be reading this while looking for serious answers.

The lady I rent from is a great example. She has told me multiple times what an empathetic person she is, reciting empathy word for word of what it should be, while treating one of the sons so poorly. I lied to this lady and said my dad had just died in order for her to leave me alone and stop being a bitch. I just recently found out the son only moved here a couple months ago. His situation was even worse with his mother. These people here treat this kid like a servant and couldn't care less about his emotional and psychological development. I thought he was very tall and around 12. He's 16. So timid. No self confidence. It disturbs me.

I'm moving away from society. I don't know if I'll come back. It's not something I can control. I get overwhelmed. Empathy and compassion. These traits have become faults.

I'll figure out where the nicest people, good social skills, good morals, peaceful.... and live outside of town.

[Ellamaye]

Please don't ever think empathy and compassion are not good traits and are faults.. it's the code I live my life by . I always think to myself I can't control how others act I can only control how I act and I am my judge and jury. Aslong as I can hold my head high and always try to do the right thing then that is what counts x

[Jennblank7734 in reply to Ellamaye]

I will post publicly about my mental health journey. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to give out ant info. People quote the dictionary easily when it comes to empathy and compassion.

I wrote hate on my forehead today.

Tomorrow I will write compassion on myself.

[Ellamaye]

Not all people I promise you

[Ellamaye]

As much as I admire you wanting to publicly share your journey x can I also be concerned that you might attract negatively that could upset you?

[Jennblank7734]

I dont have anyone but my dogs. I am comfortable. I hope that people actually understand what I'm doing and how mental health needs to be examined. These medications don't work. The hospitals don't help. I also have physical health problems and dealt with lack of understanding and empathy in 90% of my experiences with doctors. People are suffering and there are people profiting off of that. I have always been extremely shy. This is difficult but holding it inside is not working.