I know.......

[mizzou7016]

but please don't give up hope

[Vonus5591]

I don't know whether I believe in better days anymore and just another day alive is better to say for me

[mizzou7016 in reply to Vonus5591]

A day can't be better if you aren't alive....some days we are meant to thrive and get a lot done.....sometimes we are meant to survive the moment and to live to try again tomorrow.....that's where hope comes in to play.....without hope we have nothing

[Vonus5591 in reply to mizzou7016]

yes hope huge - but it's unchanging world for me as son still nonverbal and clients still with their health conditions and parents with their health issues - scary sometimes

[mizzou7016 in reply to Vonus5591]

and me also....dealing with the violence both inside the walls and outside....being mean to myself.....suffocating all of my emotions because no one truly understands the life of another......scared of what I have been.....terrified of what I am now.......hopeful that I will thrive in the future

[mizzou7016]

Oh I already regret it...but I wouldn't have it any other way...have lost and found myself more than I care to admit....but half the fun in the journey is the path we take to get to the destination