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I went and visit my baby boys grave today...I haven't been able to stop crying since I left a little over an hour ago. Idk how to show emotions or feelings and it sucks. It all comes out in anger then I feel horrible for lashing out on those around me. Going there makes me severely sad after, but don't get me wrong I go for my baby. I just can't get over it and I'm not sure I'll ever heal fully πŸ’”

Can y'all be kind as to post pretty pics of like sunsets anything, animal pics. I just need something positive

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davidthecoder

When I'm feeling down, sometimes I will go look at pictures of New Zealand. It does boost my mood a bit. But life is hard and it is ok to struggle.

new zealand
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ashleybakerr01 in reply to davidthecoder

Beautiful 😍. And life is hard..I wish it wasn't 😞

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LifeIsThePitts

I don't know how horrible it must be for you losing your son. But I know how awful the last few weeks have been after losing my baby boy pup. Here's Smokey...he was known in our neighborhood as "the dog with shoes"... hope he brings a smile to your face...I miss everything about him

Smokey πŸ‘ŸπŸ‘Ÿ
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ashleybakerr01 in reply to LifeIsThePitts

Aww he's cutee

And it's been hard...it's been over a year and it's still drains me πŸ˜”πŸ’”. It was very traumatic

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LadyZen

Can I ask what the baby's name is? Sometimes it's healing to tell people his or her name.

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to LadyZen

Michael Lee. I lost him April 20th 2022. I was 14 weeks along ..and he was still born

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to LadyZen

He was so very tiny πŸ’”πŸ˜”

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LadyZen in reply to ashleybakerr01

I use to help coordinate support groups for mothers that lost their babies. If you decide to ask the Catholic church about food resources, they might be able to help you find a support group for that too. Anyway, I'm sorry for your loss. Michael Lee is a very ethereal name. I had a baby that didn't make it. Her name was actually April. She was due April 1st many years ago.

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to LadyZen

I'm sorry you had a loss too.

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SusieSoul

So sorry for your loss. Losing a baby is like a knife to the heart. In Australia , we have support groups for Moms grieving for lost babies like Michael Lee. You can be with like minded Moms until you are ready to face the dawn again, or stay as long as you like.

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Teaching

I don't have any picture to post but sending you lots of love. Virtual hug!

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secrets22

Thinking of you are this difficult time, sadly the pain of loss never goes away...

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to secrets22

Sadly it doesn't

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catsrock

I'm so sorry for your loss.

This is Molly.
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ashleybakerr01 in reply to catsrock

Aw hi Molly

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Cavalierrubie

My heart goes out to you. If l could take the pain away l would. There are so many things we do not understand and hope one day we will, but l always have faith that there is a reason for everything, even if we don’t know, or cannot see it. Perhaps it saved your precious little boy from something awful or traumatic. It is you left to mourn because he is sleeping in perfect peace. I don’t believe God gives us a gift and then takes it away. You wil be together again at a different time, in a different and better place. God bless and comfort you.

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to Cavalierrubie

Thank you. That truly helped me a little πŸ’ž

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Cavalierrubie in reply to ashleybakerr01

❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️ love and prayers.

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kenster1

I know the pain only to well my partner lost an unborn sure it was 7 weeks on and me and my ex lost a child aged 6 the pain never goes away but over time we manage a bit better. when I go to the grave I`m at peace now and always look forward to going down.

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ashleybakerr01 in reply to kenster1

I'm so sorry to hear your losses . It never gets easier, we just learn to live with it. I like going down because well that my baby you know, but it also hurts too. Knowing caskets can be that tiny ..it just breaks my heart. I feel for everytone who ever had to go through it

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kenster1

here`s a picture of my dog think she was curious at seeing the fish jump out the water.

dog pic.
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ashleybakerr01 in reply to kenster1

Aw lol. I love dogs

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Zhangliqun

Bunny bed for tiny dog.

Bunny bed for tiny dog.
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sochel

I am so very, very sorry for your loss, losing a child is unbearable, and what a lovely name. I lost a baby many years ago, and I keep him alive in my mind by imagining what he would be doing at each stage, he would have been 41 this year and in my mind he is an architect with a wonderful husband, and they have a really full life. I am lucky enough to have had 3 beautiful daughters (all grown up now), since I lost my Son. In time you will be able to think of your Son without the horrendous pain, though he will never be forgotten you will be able to remember him in a less painful way. My heart goes out to you, and I wish you well.

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ladybyrd

Ashleybakerr01, I didn't have a picture to send, but I'm holding you close in πŸ™. I've never had a child to pass away, but I've heard it's the hardest thing to go through as a parent. I'm so sorry for your loss. There's no time limited for greaving especially for a child. You cry as much as you need to, those raw feelings just means you're alive and have suffered a great loss. Sending you lots of hugs.

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Jstbcuz

I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our precious son at the age of 6. There are just no words to explain the heartache. πŸ˜ͺ I hope you have a supportive family or friends that you can also talk to. ((((HUGS))))

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kenster1 in reply to Jstbcuz

same age as my son sorry to hear that you have suffered loss as well.

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LifeIsThePitts

He's in Peace... it's me that's suffering πŸ˜”πŸ’”

BESTEST boy EVER

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