Woke up and I am lying in bed, it is 3 in the morning. My mind is taking off in so many different directions, jumping from one time period in my life to another. Taking me on a journey from one incident in life then to another, replaying scenes in an effort to figure things out and to make sense of where I find myself. Try to ignore the chatter and return to sleep but it’s relentless. After an hour turns into two hours, and it is now 5:20 still have not got it figured out. Now I am writing at 5:35 and the only thing I can think that helps, that makes any sense is that I need to be in the present time period! Not in the past, not worrying about the future, but here, no matter how difficult it may seem. Or else later on in life I again will be lying awake looking back at this time in my life trying to figure it all out! Life can be really hard! In times when life is at its heaviest, when a person feels lost, and it feels as if they are carrying so much it makes it hard to see any path forward, those are the time they need to show up completely for themselves. These are the times I need to show up in, the right now or I will not come through to the other side with growth and gratitude, but only with regrets and loss. Now 5:53 could use a cuppa coffee then going to continue reading my book, “The things you can see only when you slow down “.
Just thoughts let lose…..
Good morning everyone best wishes to you all on this Saturday.