Feeling like a disappointment

[BlueAgave]

I went out tonight to celebrate my birthday with my family and a few friends. We went to an escape room. I was anxious all day about it, finally time to go and I managed. We were supposed to go for dinner after and I just panicked. Had to tell my friends I couldn't go in the restaurant. My stepdaughter was obviously disappointed, my friends were good about it. Now I was supposed to go tomorrow night to a comedy show with some friends, but after tonight I canceled. I was doing so well for several weeks and now this. I know I can't let this bring me back down, but just can't help feeling like I'm a huge disappointment to everyone, especially myself. Thanks for listening.

[LadyZen]

Some days are going to be better than others. You sound like you have some understanding friends. It probably would've been nice to have you there, but it sounds like they were okay.

[BlueAgave in reply to LadyZen]

I have some great friends, yes. I just feel like this past year I have let them down by not being present. I know they love me the same though. Thank you!

[gajh]

I think it is great that you were able to do the escape room. Give yourself credit for what you did accomplish. Don't beat yourself up.

[BlueAgave in reply to gajh]

Thank you

[Arymretep]

I had to do the same thing at the weekend, I was supposed to go to a family Xmas get together , but woke with a flare up of my chronic pain so I couldn’t make it, these things happen and caring family and friends should understand .

Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind