"Pressures" To Say This Or Do That.

[ladybyrd]

I'm realizing that I'm the one putting pressure on myself to say this or do that. Not others or my circumstances. I guess what it boils down to, I am the one that wants to control myself and other's. I try to stay one step ahead to control the outcome before it even happens. It's exhausting and I don't have anything left for myself and others at the end of the day. It's become such an attachment that it feels like who I am instead of what I'm doing. What a waste of time and energy, but yet I still continue in this pattern. I know the why's I'm doing it, I just haven't been able to make that shift. So, I continue down this road of self destruction, missing out on life itself and all it brings.

[LadyZen]

It takes a lot of practice to undo some of our habits. Sometimes it's just who we are, and the best we can do is manage it.

[ladybyrd in reply to LadyZen]

That is so true.

[Agora1]

ladybyrd, I hear you loud and clear. We can be our own worst enemy at times.

Having control over our lives can be very exhausting both mentally and physically.

First of all we must know that we can't control others. In trying to we hit a brick wall.

So that leaves just us, which in itself is enough.

Something I learned just recently after getting out of the hospital and that was

PACE yourself. I'm a go getter and controller over myself to the point of not having

enough hours in the day to complete all the tasks I think I have to do.

I feel the need to make people laugh when I talk with them, adding more pressure

on myself.

It's a habit. Possibly making up for something I didn't have when growing up and

that was Control... Take time dear to smell the roses as they say. It is never too

late to break habits that can be harmful to ourselves. Pace Yourself xx

[ladybyrd in reply to Agora1]

Your exactly right, in the slowing down has always been a problem for me. I'm always one step ahead of myself. Thanks, I'll work on it.