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[Saraivhdheed]

I was here before.. Months ago..It was nice to write and share some of my thoughts or everyday situations...

But I couldn't, and I still can't.But I couldn't do that and I still can't.

Words don't come out of my mouth.

And all I feel like is just suffocating.

I try hard to move forward and see the good things. And I try to do good things on my day.

I was able to raise nearly two hundred dollars for a small charity and handed them the money today. It was a good achievement. It is not little money here. And I thought it would make me feel a little happy, but no.

I completed all my lessons and was able to add some external lessons. And that was good. But I can't feel happy.. I am just suffocating..

And worse. I can no longer talk about my negative feelings or what caused them. I try hard, but I just can't do that, and I'm just looking. I don't think anyone will listen, so I prefer silence, and I don't know when it's going to break down..

And all I hope right now.. Is talking about how I feel and why I feel it 💔

[gajh]

I am glad you are here talking about how you feel and why you feel it. We are here to listen. I know it can be hard to express yourself. I think it is amazing that you raised the money for charity. Maybe it didn't make you feel a little happy right away, but maybe it will make you feel a little happy in the future. it is good that you try to move forward and see the good things and try to do good things in your day. Maybe you will stay with us this time and see if we can help at all.

[Saraivhdheed in reply to gajh]

Thank you very much.. I also hope to stay with you this time ☺️

[Thankfulforhelp22]

keep talking and writing here. You sound like such a selfless and courageous person to keep pushing through difficulties and yet think of helping others.

I'm sorry times are tough. It can be so hard to talk about mental struggles, to even find the words. However, I must say I am inspired to be more giving by your posting.

Wishing you well and that the good you do will be returned to you.

[Saraivhdheed in reply to Thankfulforhelp22]

It is nice to know I was able to inspire you to be more giving..I believe that giving makes people happy, this is the most thing that makes me happy in the past.

And I hope that will return.

Thank you ☺️

[Hidden]

Hello that was a great thing for you to do helping others helps ourselves also can you do some more charity work like this help take your mind of things 🤗

[Saraivhdheed in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for your reply..Yeah I like to do that..

[Dolphin14]

Maybe this type of format would be easier, writing anonymously and getting feedback.

You did a wonderful thing donating to charity. I'm certain it made a difference in the lives of the recipients.

🐬

[Saraivhdheed in reply to Dolphin14]

That is true but I gust try to talk more about my feelings

[Dolphin14 in reply to Saraivhdheed]

I bottled my feelings up for years so I know what you mean. I didn't feel safe sharing them.

I still struggle with it but when I can talk I feel so much better. I feel anxious.

Keep trying