it’s been 9 years Daugter passed, 7 divorced and I’m trying still to keep going. I just don’t want to leave my home. Just this summer I’ve had 7 jobs. Previously before all happened. I worked at a school for over 20 plus years. Now I can’t seem to get out. Only to dr apts. legs swell. No one knows why. They hurt. I’m so tired. I’m 58 and just feel like when I was working , I worked to pay bills to just wait till my time was up. What kind of life is that. I have to work. I’m broke. Lost. Just mentally exhausted. How in the world do I get out of this. So many meds. Therapy. Not helping. I digit what happiness even was anymore.
I’m feeling so lost: it’s been 9 years... - Anxiety and Depre...
I’m feeling so lost
Hello my heart goes out to you on your losses loosing a child I can only imagine must be the hardest thing and not long after your husband went, so life is a ongoing struggle in dealing with these grief's, do you have parents that you can turn to I'm.sure they'd help, perhaps take on a lodger to help with bills I may have to do that,what are you living circumstances, life in the 5os is never easy due to hormone changes why don't you see your doctor about HRT hormone replacement therapy it's really helpful, this winter time lack of sunlight takes it toll too have you tried light therapy luma light, out brains need the light to be ok, your legs well sounds like you need water tablets the doctor should be able to solve the problem keep on at the doc ask for referral to specialist, I know it's hard making the effort but try and incorporate some time doing planning things you enjoy many join a organisation where can meet like minded people a old hobby you like we have a library where we can go to have coffee and keep warm and read or socialise if want to is there something like that, I'm sorry I can't be more helpful, sending a hug 🤗
There's a forum on here called Bereament care and share you will find support on there on dealing with grief it's a great community 😊
Here's the site
I'm sorry. It sounds like you've been through a lot. Give yourself time. Take things one moment at a time. I'm glad you're in therapy. Hopefully, you can find something today to be good to yourself.
Have you tried Flight socks? They are tight, and come right up to the knee, and help with the return of the blood.
I wear them and they help me. I'm 75.
Cheers, Midori