SO TIRED!

[Misunderstood86]

Hello everyone. Haven't been here for awhile a needed to be. At this point in my life I don't know what to do or go, I'm so depressed that I don't know myself anymore and don't like myself. Only 37 and I'm losing teeth, hair, can't gain weight only 125lbs. Arthritis everywhere, my mental state is fragile my wife basically blames me for everything including her family stuff. She drinks alot now and don't see it as a problem but she changes everytime now and just be mean. Says I don't do anything to help but I work 12hrs barely 3 hrs of sleep, when I try to give her rest its excuses why she can't sleep. Acts like she does everything but kids hair not done and don't even clean up for real. I think I'm just done with everything. I don't have anybody in this world but my step grand dad.

[trailmixup]

Hello! I just joined this online group recently. I certainly relate to that feeling of self-doubt and despair along with not knowing what to do or where to go. It's a horrible feeling. But there has to be some hope, at least that's what I tell myself anyway. Sounds like you are exhausted and overwhelmed. Sometimes just getting outside and taking a long walk helps me, just for a change of scenery or I'll see someone walking their cute dog and it brings me a brief moment of joy. I get frustrated because I'm always the one doing all the laundry, housework, grocery shopping and cooking along with working 10 hour days. I guess I don't feel very appreciated? My partner says he loves me all the time, but inside I think to myself "if you really loved me, you would help out around the house more." I'm always picking up after him and trying to keep the apartment tidy, but somehow more messes show up. Sounds like you have some physical issues too. I get it! I have shingles now and it's miserable, yet I'm still trying to work today. Anyway, just know you are not alone.

[secrets22]

Oh gosh, you really are putting up with a lot, absolutely terrible, working 12 hours and only sleeping for 3, oh dear, you cant go on like this, and your wife sounds very cruel, and i dont know what to say except that you are a very strong guy to have put up with situation so long.You really must put yourself first at last, for you are being burnt out.

[Misunderstood86 in reply to secrets22]

I am burnt out