Been awhile

[ashleybakerr01]

Hi. It's been awhile since I've posted here. I'm just wanting to post an update. I'm eating again here and there. I still have my days I can't eat without panicking at the thought of food 🫤. My depression has been bad again lately. I see everyone having cute precious babies, yet I lost 2 and it makes me wonder 😔💔. I'm not very good with words, but if anyone ever needs a friend or someone to listen to them vent, I'm always open to new friendships and to talk

[Ellamaye]

My heart broke when I read this I hope you are OK x

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Ellamaye]

Im ok...I try to be at least. For the few people who do seem like they care that is. I just feel so useless and hate life most the time honestly. I struggle with eating still, even over a year later. It's hard, and most days I can barely even bring myself to eat anything soft

[Lunafilip in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I am in the same condition, even with medication. I thought I recovered in March, when I stopped the medication, but in August had another episode that threw me back into meds and struggle with eating. Last time I lost 13 kg. Now again I am starting to lose weight. But I believe that if I did it last time, maybe I will be able to do it again and be close to normal, as I think I will never get back to normal.

Do you get any meds for the depression?

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Lunafilip]

I was on medication. It made me worse mentally so I had to stop. They tried upping my dose, which just made me worse and I couldn't leave my home more than an hour without having severe panic attacks.

[Lunafilip in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I am sorry to hear this. Do you know what made you start having this panic attacks? I also have a hard time leaving the house, especially in the morning. Went to therapy, was ok for a while, now it all got back. I am sure both of us will be ok eventually!

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Lunafilip]

Just always had anxiety growing up. It's been a lot better lately though