My anxiety is through the roof, I am feeling a crushing wave of Loneliness and she isn't out the door yet. And this was and is an unhealthy relationship. So I should be happy to see her go.
All my planning for moving has completely gone wrong. That’s what denial does for you.
I haven't had a decent night's sleep in three or more weeks.
It's amazing I haven't ended up in the fetal position on the floor as yet.
Just feeling nauseous.
I am truly alone at this point; friends have all fallen by the wayside. I haven't had a relationship with family members in over ten years. That was truly an unhealthy circumstance.
The rental townhouse will be 80% empty except for my things which don't seem to able to fit on the Bus I purchased thinking a roof over my head and a toilet made sense since I have colitis and never know when it will strike. The garage is 50% full and I have no Idea where it will go.
I had three people this week tell me I am too nice. To much a nice guy.
If I had any balls I would pull the trigger... never had the nerve, thought about it often.
I pray every night to not wake up . Let it be over.
How screwed it is to live a life of physical and emotional pain that never ends.
I should be happy to start a new adventure, instead I am depressed.
Pills didn’t help. Therapy didn’t help.
Venting helps, but only to a point.
I will wake up again tonight from a dead, I finally passed out sleep, with an overwhelming anxiety attack. And then not fall back to sleep. It's been happening almost every night for weeks.
Venting helps, but only to a point.
Thanks for taking the time.