Finding Hope

[KittenMama]

It's been a month since I made my attempt. While the mental recovery has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs, last night I realized that the world is constantly going to challenge me and make me feel like I can't achieve happiness. But that's not necessarily the point of the hardships. I can make the life I want to live over time. Things are not going to change in a day, a week, or even a year. So I need to stop expecting that.

For example, I thought getting my master's ASAP would solve a lot of problems. So I chose a shorter program and pushed myself to finish quickly. That wrecked my mental health. Now, I'm taking my time with classes and even switching to a longer program that opens up more opportunities for me in the long run. The reality is, I'm barely 26. And yet I was pushing myself to have a successful career and steady income by the time I was 25. But for the life I wanted to live, that is incredibly rare.

So I guess what I want to share is that we have time.

Take the time you need to take care of yourself.💗

[LoveforAll41]

This is a wonderful post KittenMama. I ended up dropping out of college due to mental health and got a certificate at a tech school that took me 5 years to do a 1.5 year program 😬. I am now going to school online at 32... I am at peace though. I would have liked to have a degree by 23 at least, and a house by 25, but it wasn't in the cards for me. I got my self-worth caught up in acheivement. I often feel bad for not being further along in my career or owning a house and I have to focus on what really matters. It is annoying that I have to put work in on feeling good, but it is something I personally have to do.

I also like to emphasize that happiness doesn't have to be the end goal. I shoot for peace, it is okay and normal to be sad sometimes. We obviously don't want that to slip into depression. I am working on my definition of comittment. Now for me I have to add that being comitted to finishing school includes the comittment to nurture myself along the way so that I have peace in getting there. I am glad that you are learning and have learned younger than I. We do have time, and we have the power to change our circumstances or ourselves over time. ❤️

[Starrlight]

You’re amazing!