Intrusive anxiety

[Themightiestrin]

One of my recurrent anxiety things is that I think about my partner dying alotI feel paranoid when they leave the house or when I'm not around to like "check" and make sure they're okay

I even check to make sure they're breathing when they're sleeping next to me at night.

I can talk myself down from it sometimes but it always comes right back, probably recurring every 30 minutes or soish

It just makes me so desperately sad to think about something happening and then potentially having to live a life without them. (Even in the context of growing old together and having lived a full life together)

I was wondering if anyone has dealt with something similar, either in terms of this type of pattern of anxiety or these kinds of tights and how y'all have dealt with it

Thank you for your time