my world

[CLB1125]

this is my backyard. It’s beautiful and peaceful, most of the time. I’m blessed and I know it. Then why am I so unhappy?

[Starrlight]

It’s beautiful Like you

[CLB1125 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you 😊

[Singingmoose]

That’s the million dollar question. Why are we unhappy. It would be nice to know. I’ve had a lot going on at once to bring me down, but some of it is settling down more, but I’m still unhappy and too exhausted to get help, other than virtual therapy. Ugh!

[fauxartist]

It's a beautiful yard, and I bet some days you do really get to love it. But depression blinds us from happiness, it lies to us, makes us feel sad for no reason, it just is....it's a chemical imbalance. And it's not your fault, you didn't do anything to cause it, you didn't deserve it. But some days are just blah....and nothing seems to help....so just let yourself be and do what you can do to get through the day, cup of tea, movie, crafts, art, book, anything to just ride it out.

[Agora1]

CLB1125, Sometimes we become so focused on one thing that we fail to look and

see the beauty of Life all around us. xx

[bonkers65]

I wish I knew the answer. Until then I just try to accept it and do the best I can. And your windmill is really cool. Is that some kind of crop growing behind it?

[CLB1125 in reply to bonkers65]

Thank you my kids and husband gave me the windmill for mother’s day/birthday this year. Yes that’s our oats crop. Reminds me of amber waves of grain in the song.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Depression is funny like that. I can have a great day and at night I lie in bed and think of how terribly alone I feel and find tears rolling down my cheeks. I wish I had the answer too. And I would happily give away for free if I did.

You have a beautiful backyard and I bet at night it's even more beautiful cause you can see the stars. That's what I end up doing late at night. My house may have it's share of problems (trials and tribulations of being a first time home buyer) but it can see so many stars.

❤️🫂

[FlowersNrainbows33]

Beautiful backyard. God bless you dear

[catsrock]

Depression doesn't care how nice your life is. Your brain is telling you otherwise. I hope you feel better soon.

[CLB1125]

thank you everyone I am glad I found this wonderful group of friends

[Trainchaser]

What makes you unhappy. Your picture sure looks like a peaceful place

[CLB1125 in reply to Trainchaser]

What makes me unhappy? People (family) who have no regard for my feelings. They just assume I’m always going to be there when they need me. Being alone. Not physically alone but alone in my mind and heart. Forgotten until they need me.

[Hidden]

Beautiful 😍. I'm sorry that you're struggling, you're not alone. Hugs

[mizzou7016]

Love the windmill. I would say rather than being unhappy. You're starting to take your life back...your current situation is actually a happy 1. What you're unhappy with...like most of us...is how you let yourself be treated for so long. Keep moving forward.

[CLB1125 in reply to mizzou7016]

Absolutely right. My husband is the worst one. The one that I thought would always have my back.