I’m disappointed

[Danzdanz123]

today was my brothers leaving do before he moved to Mexico so my family are all meeting, and I couldn’t do it I’ve been stressed and irritated all day and had scary thoughts about life and it feels like I’m gunna go insane I also feel like I don’t have the motivation to be around people and I didn’t know whether pushing it would make me feel so much worse. I’m in such a pickle at the moment my brother is moving to Mexico my mum sleeps over at work and works a lot so I’m going to be alone and to top it my said she’s going to give my cat to my sister which means I’m going to be completely alone, all ny friends live so far away so it’s not like I can go see them and anyways I’m struggling to even leave the house it’s such a battle being alone I panic being with people I panic cause I get freaked out about life and I just feel like I can’t flipping win and it makes me so mad at the same time

[gajh]

I am sorry to hear about your situation. It sounds very painful. It sounds like you are trying to take care of yourself which is great. I am glad you are here sharing.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to gajh]

It’s difficult when the depression in my body doesn’t want me here and that it all feels too overwhelming xxx

[gajh in reply to Danzdanz123]

I know it feels overwhelming that is a lot of stuff to deal with all at once. If you can, try to just take it one step at a time instead of thinking about everything at once. I know that is much easier said than done. Depression makes it all so hard to deal with when you are already feeling so low. I know your friends live far away, but can you talk to them on the phone? I know that isn't as good as being together. At least you might not feel so alone.

[LoveforAll41]

"I panic being with people I panic cause I get freaked out about life and I just feel like I can’t flipping win and it makes me so mad at the same time"

I feel that. I think there are those catch-22s with anxiety and depression for most people that have them. I am glad that there are people that are helpful to you when you are able to be around them. Do you not live in the home the cat does then? Maybe you can get a new one? I volunteered at the local humane society for a bit to be around animals but that ended up giving me some anxiety too. Hopefully your brother understands it would be overwhelming to be at his get together. You can always send him a letter or text. I have missed A LOT of family functions over the years because of my mental health and now I just tell them I am not doing well and they understand.

Are you able to call some of those people occasionally that you like to be around? Phone calls give me anxiety but I almost always feel better after calling a friend...

I know you can find a way through this pickle. I wish you hope, peace, and strength to reach out

[Danzdanz123 in reply to LoveforAll41]

Yeh you’re so right it feels like you can’t win either way! I feel like my whole life has fallen apart and there’s no escape in off sick so struggling for money too it’s well and truly awful to be feeling like this and everything is changing around me

[TangledUpIn]

Can you keep your cat? At least you would have a pet around to give you love 🐱

[Danzdanz123 in reply to TangledUpIn]

I’m going to ask my mum if I can keep him here I feel sorry for him cause he loves it here outside.