This sickness caused my anxiety since my birth

[Against_the_current]

I feel cursed. I try to get better but i can't escape it. Sometimes i forget it's the root and then it comes to remind me. I came here to treat my anxiety and it came. I now remember why i don't do things like normal people -travel, work, exercise, date, lose weight, eat normal stuff... basically all i can do is study and even that is not so sure. I try to do something and like a miracle/curse I'm throwing up again. And it's the same physical illness i had since a baby. It's not that i got anxious and started throwing up. It's i started throwing up and i got anxious. Probably no matter how much therapy i do, I won't heal because this damn virus will come back whenever i try to get my head above water.

[Mohammad-341]

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[Against_the_current in reply to Mohammad-341]

Thank you. So it's in my control?

[SoporRose]

You are an excellent researcher. (I still think that research might be your calling.) Now that you're between schools, take some time to research your condition. Try the Mayo Clinic site:

mayoclinic.org

It's absolutely reputable and the clinic is world renowned. All the information you get there will be evidence based.

As you think about whether to go to your mom's or to your accommodation, ask yourself where you will be able to maintain a decent diet better. Since acid reflux can be made much worse by an unhealthy diet, you might want to give food accessibility some prominence in your thoughts.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you, that's a good point for rathionalising my fear of mom. And yeah i think research might be it

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

And even if you start with research and decide later that you want to go in a different direction, that research experience will open doors for you in many other fields.

Where are you know? In hospital or at home?