How do I bypass ?

[Saraivhdheed]

I'm not a girl, I'm twenty years old. And that's enough to depend on myself.But what bothers me is that I resent my childish behavior, which is why I am writing now.

I often feel like hugging. I want him so badly. It doesn't even stop coming to my mind sometimes

I feel bad for this, but it's the truth.

Sometimes I wish I could stay on someone's lap and cry for a long time until I fell asleep. And that's what I hope for now.

Is that so stupid?

Am I just trying to forget it and it will disappear?

What can I do about it?

[Xene]

Hi Saraivhdheed, no matter what sex you are, male, female, trans or anything else you are still a human being and deserve to love and be loved. Sounds like a complex situation with him but I guess you either keep your feelings to yourself and suffer or tell him how you feel and possibly face rejection. Neither option is easy but sooner or later you will have to choose or just hope that your feelings will diminish. Sadly we all have to face rejection at times but we eventually move forward. Good luck.

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I am 44 years old and literally in a panic attack breakdown, my husband asked me what I needed. I said I wanted my Mom and to sit on her lap in rocking chair like I did when I grew up. Swear to you, that's what I said. My Mom though is in hospice with end stage parkinsons, so I think my thinking is two fold: she really did provide me protection and comfort as a child but she is also about to fade away. I pray she fades soon as her pain is just beyond anything I've ever seen, yet she does not complain. Human contact and touch can never be replaced by the internet. We need these things and so I'm not fully sure of your situation, I can relate to needing to be safe and feel safe by someone we love very much. When I got remarried after a ridiculously stupid divorce, I asked for one thing, and it was for my husband to help me feel safe all of the time. He does the best he can, but we often need to find our own safety plan. I'm sorry you are struggling so much but am happy you are here and posted!