Anxiety

[Atthepark]

So I kinda noticed a pattern over the years w my anxiety and rage. I get bad feelings and there is no reason for it but it just feels so horrible and I can't explain it. But I noticed a pattern w my anxiety and illness. Say one day I'm having really bad anxiety and I can't figure out why. Well usually something later on in the day something normally bad happens. It's like I can predict how my day is going depending on how my anxiety is. Does any one else ever made that connection bt anxiety then something bad happens and I say to myself oh thays why I was having a bad feeling. Then I feel better for the day. Weird huh?

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I think it's a fair comment to say that often times our thoughts come to fruition. I do think though that statement can be working against you at times. I feel like our mind can turn on us and make something normal into an anxious response. I wake up every day in panic and jump out of bed around 2am. I have some PTSD that interferes a lot, but I know I can't predict those nights at all. I have some physical limitations so being up early helps me to get though my day as I don't digest food on my own. I have to take tons of meds and things. We are trying to avoid a Stoma with medication, but I need 4-8 hours a day to hang at the toilet. So I get up way early, like nothing is wrong, but keep the peace and quiet to deal with my issues. Half the days it goes ok and half the days I end up home and bed ridden with likely constipation. I think my negative thinking contributes to some of the less stressful things that I should be able to handle!