I've tried everything.....

[Shield_Of_Faith]

I'm mentally tired.....so what do I do.....I hate existing for no reason. I've tried really hard to be strong. But why? It doesn't matter. But yet here I am. What do you do when the loneliness and anxiety is just to much? I'm the odd one out, the black sheep, the forgotten one and the loner. I'm trying not to be depressing, this is a weak moment for me. Sorry I just get scared to let myself be vulnerable, because I feel I'm being annoying,burden, a bother or whatever word you wanna use but when the depressing feelings are just to much, when you tried everything to get better, what now? Idk. Brave face to everyone around me but in private shedding tears 🥲

[Agamemnon2022]

Man I've been there. I'm there right now to a lesser extent. The road to recovery is so long. It can seem like there is no purpose but that is your brain lying to you. Life can still be filled with moments of great joy. But for people like us, we have to fight for it. The struggle is exhausting and long, but it does get better, if you keep working the process. I will pray for you that God will hold you in his embrace and fill you with his spirit in your time of darkness.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Agamemnon2022]

Yeah this journey in my life so far has been extremely difficult but it could be worse, I believe God got and still is getting me through all the difficult times but it is still hard. Thank you for the prayers! 🙏

[Stippler]

I can definitely relate to the loneliness so, in that respect, you are not alone. I am holding you in the Light - that you can find contentment.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Stippler]

Thank you for understanding me. 🙂

[Hidden]

yes I was feeling down but then I started appreciating the people around me. It made me feel friend is good word and what you need

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Hidden]

I know I do. I don't mean to get selfish, I still remember the blessing of my family.Thank you for replying. 👍

[Indiegal]

I totally understand the things you're feeling. I've been there many times before, and I've felt many of these same things recently. I know you mentioned you've tried everything so I'm not sure what all that includes. Therapy and in some cases medication can help. You may need to find a different therapist if you've already tried that. Or different meds if that's a fit for you.

As far as right now, try doing one small thing that brings you joy. It can be as simple as taking a walk or painting or reading a new book. Sometimes trying something new that's small and not too overwhelming can help you see joy in the little things. It can also help to keep a gratitude journal. It may sound kind of hokey, but it does help change your mindset after you start doing it daily. Hang in there! It may not seem like it now, but things can get better.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Indiegal]

Yeah I've done therapy for years, I've tried so many different ones, switching new ones because no one could truly help me. I was prescribed different meds over the years some kinda worked but not enough and alot others did nothing. Yeah I try to enjoy the little things to get me through the day but anxiety always there building and manifesting. But I'm trying to be strong the best I can. Thanks for the understanding! 👍

[Jeff1943]

Shield of Faith, I think you have only one problem: you under estimate yourself. You under estimate your power to change those parts of your life that are unsatisfactory. Despite your feeling of depletion you have the strength, courage and know-how to turn everything round to your advantage.

Do not spend time feeling sorry for yourself: that way lies wasted energy. Use that time and energy to put in place building blocks to achieve your personal goals. Nobody is sent problems to cope with that they do not have the means to overcome.

You are no exception.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Jeff1943]

Thank you I'm trying. It just alot to keep dealing with everyday. Thanks for replying, i appreciate it.

[Jeff1943 in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

Have you ever read 'Hope and Help for your nerves' written almost a lifetime ago by Claire Weekes? Oh no, not another self-help book, I hear you groan! No this is not just another self-help book. It is THE self-help book. Weekes has long since passed to the realm of spirit where no doubt she continues her healing ministry. Recently they published her biography and it is titled 'Claire Weekes - the woman who cracked the anxiety code'. It is said that in the past 50 years her book has brought recovery to tens of millions of people worldwide. Who says so? David Barlow, Emeritus Professor of Psychology and Psychiatry at Boston University says so. Oh, and I say so too. So for just a few dollars new or used you will obtain a copy on Amazon or E-bay. If you only read one more book in your life this is that book. I wish you God's speed in your recovery, so long overdue.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Jeff1943]

Oh ok thanks for that suggestion I'll look in to that! Thank you so very much!🙏

[Midori]

If you have a faith, go to your church and have a talk with the pastor or priest. Often they have support groups for people in despair.

Cheers, Midori

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Midori]

Yes I started talking to my pastor weekly sessions. It is helping me but you know anxiety is always there fighting me. But my pastor really understands me and it is helping. 🙏

[designguy]

I know this may sound flippant but it's not meant to be but you might try surrendering and accepting who you are and where you are at and focus on the good things about yourself and your life. Yes, being vulnerable is scary but it's also immensely rewarding and liberating and definitely worth the risk.

I use to spend so much time trying to figure out what was wrong with me when in reality nothing was but my thinking. One of my favorite simple books is "There is nothing wrong with you" by Cheri Huber. It helped change my thinking about myself.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to designguy]

Thank you for understanding! I know it just gets hard at times to accept me for me. But I do see the blessings in my life. My mind just gets clouded at times. I'm trying and wanting to be better. 🙏

[designguy in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

You're welcome. Another thing that has helped me is learning to question my thinking/thoughts and to not believe everything I think. I found The Work by Byron Katie to be very helpful and simple, she has some books out and is on youtube. Also, learning and practicing self-compassion and acceptance has been very helpful and made a big difference for me. There is a lot of good info on youtube about it.

Obviously I don't know much about you or your background but it could be that you are also dealing with low-self-worth and could benefit from learning more about it and how to increase it for yourself. For those of us that were never taught or parented or like in my case, punished and shamed for showing any signs of being proud of myself or trying to stand up for myself it is something we have to learn and cultivate for ourselves. There are some good books on it and also a lot of info on youtube about it.

[Cavalierrubie]

l have just had some information come through from someone on the AF forum about panic attacks. Don’t know if you know this but a trained therapist has said when you panic have an extra strong mint (the very strong one) or eat something bitter or sour like lemon and this triggers the brain into thinking of something else. Perhaps you already been told this but if not eat a mint when you go out. Hope you are feeling more positive now. Love and prayers.

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Cavalierrubie]

Interesting, no I have never been told that. I will have to try that, as I speak my anxiety is driving me crazy right now. I'm so on edge and feeling extremely uneasy. But I don't usually have mints in my house, so I'll have to ask a family member to pick some up. Thanks for the advice idk if it'll work on me with how powerful my anxiety is but I have to keep trying something. I appreciate the tip. 🙂👍

[Cavalierrubie in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

Hope it helps. Perhaps you need a change of medication. After a while the meds. don’t work so well. I know because my daughter has mental issues, and recently had a relapse and they changed her meds. Perhaps yours are not strong enough now and you need a bit more help. Love and prayers.