Negative forces/demonic energy

I grew up orthodox Christian and was always scared of going to hell. I stopped believing in hell and I still don't. But I feel like I believe in karma and negative/demonic forces like mala who attacked Buddha. I may just be smoking to much weed right now because I'm avoiding feeling very difficult things I'm facing and am starting my sobriety journey today but after the last few days I really believe there are strong outer negative influences attacking me all the time. One love.

[Starrlight]

I was raised Catholic then became Muslim then studied Buddhism and now I’m spiritual…I take good from anywhere leave the rest… so I agree there can be demons or bad entities and just try not to focus too much on them giving them power.

What is happening to make you feel the entities are attacking you?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I can relate. For me it's pretty much when my unconscious desire try to trick me that its what I authentically want in my life.

[Atthepark in reply to Starrlight]

Yes that's wonderful advice I'm more spiritual sometimes I believe in Jesus and God but mostly God on a lot of days I believe God made the earth so when I see something like a beautiful flower it makes me think about how good God is but most of the time I don't feel him and I feel a lot of bad juju around oh and I'm not trying to force anyone into my religion only stating how I feel no pressure we all are 1

[Starrlight in reply to Atthepark]

I mostly am that way too, Believing in God … but also angels. Beautiful to see what God is like in a flower. I feel most connected to God in nature.

[Atthepark]

Yes I do feel that way sometimes got to stay busy that helps me

[Starrlight in reply to Atthepark]

Wise tip.

[Hidden]

Stay busy for what reason? People always say that.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

To distract one’s self from the things that bother them.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Good for you.

[Tealpillow]

It’s possible you may be experiencing some paranoia from the weed. I get like that when I have too much and it’s a reminder for me to cut back. It feels real in my mind, but once the cloud goes away, I can see how paranoid I get. Wishing you peace and support on your journey.

[4Itchy]

So, I suggest weaning off the weed completely . Take out all the extra that you put into your mind so that you can focus in WHAT IS REALLY REAL. It will be hard work but worth it.... there are no deamons only difficult thoughts about real life situations.Get away from church and religious teachings. They promote guilt, shame and worry and dependence.

Focus on what you can do to be of service and helpful to your fellow humans NOT a fantasy ideal!

I weaned off antidepressants, off of them for 6 months now after 33 years of them poisoning my mind! My thoughts are clear and I am learning to COPE with life on life's terms and use logical thinking and practical tools.

My life is greatly improved and I am hopeful and grateful for the first time in MANY years.

[Hidden in reply to 4Itchy]

I've been on and off the last few months with very long breaks like 2 months at one point. I've been considering quitting completely until I find love. Then I think it would be an occasional thing like once every couple years when in Amsterdam if even that. I've considered microdosing and definitely am slowly going off lexapro cuz it just numbs me. Glad to hear it from you and that there is light. Happy you are feeling good I only dream to get there right now versus the many dark situations I face like a lying and cheating dad my whole life. All the best.

[Weatherwoman in reply to 4Itchy]

I have been on antidep.,also, for over 20 years. When I have a stable place to live, I want to try weaning off my meds. I expect it will take quite awhile. Will consult with the new doctor to guid me. Happy for you that you are Free of the meds.

[Agamemnon2022]

Psychologically churches actually can be an excellent support mechanism for people, but you do need to pick the right church for you. Too many have an over emphasis on the old testament and not the message of love and forgiveness that Jesus's message contains in the new testament. You need to make the choice that is best for YOU.

[designguy]

I agree with the others here about smoking weed, it always made me paranoid and increased my anxiety so I quit doing it, so it could be contributing to your issues.

I grew up in an evangelical household with lots of fear and damnation and later rejected it when I was older. I personally think the bible was never meant to be taken literally and it has been used by the churches to judge and condemn those who don't believe the same way they do. I consider myself a spiritualist and believe that the wise spiritual teachers including Jesus, Ghandi, Buddha and even Martin Luther King Jr. were all basically teaching unconditional love which is unconditional love for all life, this planet, others and ourselves and we are all part of God. I think literal heaven and hell are just a human construct to explain the dual nature of being human (our light and shadow side) and the hereafter. The sad thing about many religions is they condemn our essence of being truly human and for focusing on loving ourselves first. I think if more people were taught to truly love themselves there would be a lot less trouble and strife in the world.

So what you are thinking are negative forces/demons could be some paranoia from your weed smoking and actually your negative inner critic of which we all have.