Holding feelings in

[Jamie2018]

I've been holding so much inside for so long i don't know how much longer i can and I'm scared. I been married 40 yrs and going to retire this year and not so sure it's a good thing. We don't have anything in common and we don't talk we don't even like each other much at least i don't think so we got married young and his parents are overbearing and i just let people push me around and not speaking up i don't know why i cant speak up and say what i want or don't want and now I'm so miserable not looking forward to anything. I don't even know if i would be able to survive without husband he has taken care of everything our whole marriage but i feel like i hate him and i have so many hurt emotions from long ago and today but i never speak up and say stuff hurts my feelings. I just don't know what's wrong with me now I'm crying

[Starrlight]

Nothing is wrong with you. I’m glad you let some things out. You’re doing great.

[Jamie2018 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks but something is wrong with me. I've let people manipulate me my whole life

[Starrlight in reply to Jamie2018]

So maybe you could set some boundaries.

[Jamie2018]

I could but most the people manipulated me have passed away

[Territorial]

I let people manipulate me when i was young the anxiety ruled me,, later i realized i had to change a fair bit ..It was a different way of thinking and i ended up finding out who was who some of it was tough to swallow ..But as Starrlight said you need boundaries and its not easy to do...You have been strong coming out and putting your problem out there be strong and big hugs..