Maybe they're not gossiping about me, They maybe sorting out there own prblm, maybe what I think is not the reality. Still whenever I be around people why I think it's all about me. This overthinking turns very dangerous most of the times that I lost all my control over me. Overthinking have spoiled so many things in my life; my friend circle, my social life so on. Even though I try to think positive many times, still a small thing bothers me as hell.
Whenever I calm my mind saying no it's not about me, there's always a voice shouting out to me saying no it's all about you, and they all hate you.
Lonely, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling and have lost social opportunities. I think we all tend to center on ourselves, it is a survival instinct I suppose. I try to remember that everyone has their own problems and they are probably enveloped in them. If I look at myself from another's perspective I really am not of much consequence.
There is a book called "The subtle art of not giving a f***" by Mark someone that covers some of this. Know that just being you is wonderful for the universe!
No, the problem IS NOT you. The problem is the way you see things and people around you and the way you understand things.
I think the book LoveforAll41 suggests is a good idea. I would add the idea of writing in deep details what happens and how you feel. You will be surprised how much writing and detailling things is great and makes us focus on what is reality, not what we think. In a second, you will get out of those black ideas just to write neutral events, "those that happen really".
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I wish it would end
HELP I NEED CONNECTIONS
Why can't i feel good? 
Sometimes I think dying would be easier.
