Ruminating

[Dani0431]

I’ve been struggling with ruminating lately and wondering if anyone can relate. I always just considered it nostalgia or reflection but sometimes it gets into rumination where I’m stuck in my own mind. I’m grateful for groups online like this because it can be hard to find support groups in-person.

[M_anon]

Kinda like you think of a something you had as a kid, then what you used to do with it, then where you went with it, then that one time you left it at home and did this one thing.. Then you think in depth about that experience and it feels like your dreaming while thinking about it ... ? like that ?

[Dani0431 in reply to M_anon]

Kind of! Mostly I will think about good times with people who aren’t in my life anymore and then start to feel so sad about it, as if I am trapped in that memory.

[M_anon in reply to Dani0431]

sadness does follow after a few good memories ...

you aren't alone with this

[Dani0431 in reply to M_anon]

Thanks for the reassurance. Things have just been really hard lately. The summer is supposed to be fun and exciting but I’m still feeling alone. And I also feel bad because other people do make an effort to be part of my life but for some reason I don’t feel the same connection as I have with people in the past. You know how with certain people there’s this strong connection of feeling seen and heard, almost like love, and you just want every connection to feel that way?

[M_anon in reply to Dani0431]

i totally get that . i tend to bond stronger than most and when ppl leave my life for whatever the reason. . . it hits hard . and! i feel alone sometimes when im surrounded by these people so yeah... not sure what to do about that .

summer is spsd to be a fun time for sure , but my depression kicks in full blast each time it gets nice out ... currently trying to find my way up a rabithole of emotions right now .

[Dani0431 in reply to M_anon]

Do you have any fun plans for summer or just staying home?

[M_anon in reply to Dani0431]

This summer, I plan to stay home.

My gf always wants to travel here or there, but I'm trying to focus on some financial savings goals. Considering that, I hope I don't get too bored. LOL

[Hidden]

I've also been doing that a lot lately but, mine is from trauma. Reaching out is very good for you. Thank you for sharing, I don't feel so alone. 🙂

[M_anon in reply to Hidden]

I hope the trauma you experienced doesn't hold you back to much and your handling it well more often then not.. sending positive vibes your way

[Hidden]

Thank you, sending love and light your way 🙂