Stuck between a rock and a hard place.

[Tigerlilyx13]

Since I did a sum of my story in bio I'll stick to the recent here. Since 2021 I have been going through hell. I moved in with a family friend, who came to Florida running from a boyfriend, to help her get on her feet and she used me for everything she could. Even dated my best friend and traumatized him. Thankfully that was resolved mostly. I wish to never cross paths with her again. Then things were alright for awhile. My best friend moved it we did everything together. Got through the aftermath of my ex roommate together. And then things got weird with confused feelings and such. I ended up falling for him then he rejected me which I expected but it still hurt. Then I was mentally abused by an online friend who knowing my feelings for my best friend pursued a relationship long distance with him. And made matters worse. My beatie and I got through it but not with out some hurts on both sides. I'm over than now though my feelings haven't changed. I'm still happy to have him as my best friend he's the only one of my friends that has never left or took advantage of me. And the only friend I have left. During the healing of being rejected and stress at work and getting ready to start school a year ago may my step-dad committed suicide on mother's day last year. I was baker acted shortly after that because it was my breaking point and I couldn't handle anymore pain in my life. I was put on medication for depression and anxiety. While it helps it's not enough on its own. I have also been going to therapy. That too helps. But I still feel trapped. I lost my home in hurricane Ian like so many other here in Florida and been bouncing around trying to survive. A couple months ago my mom and I finally got approved for a government provided place which turned out be a camping trailer. So I now live in a camper with my mom two cats and a dog. It's not a large space and not having any money doesn't help so I've been cooped up inside for months with no way to get out for some fun and destress. On top of than there has been a lot of tension between my mom and my bestie over the house my mom bought off him. Because we are struggling so bad payments to him has been inconsistent. While he completely understands he is being overwhelmed by his family about it and no being able.to get what he needs because he depends on the payments to get by. So I'm caught in the middle because neither of them have anyone else beside me to talk to and I can't and won't choose sides. So I try my best to listen and smooth things over, but it's really taking a toll because I can't do anything to help either or both of them. They are both my two favorite people in the world and I feel so damn useless. So this is why I'm reaching out because I don't have anyone else to talk to and I'm in so much emotional pain it feels like I'm being crushed, torn apart, then for good measure thrown in the blender on high.

[Dolphin14]

Hi

I'm sorry to read about what you have been through in the past and all you are going through now.

I am happy to hear you are getting help. This is way too much to deal with on your own.

In order to stay out of the middle in relationships you have to set a boundary. It's not easy to do but they both need to be told you can't be a sounding board. It's going to put too much stress on you.... which it sounds like it has

🐬