I joined this evening because I feel hopeless. I feel no matter what I do, nothing changes. I have lived in Texas for 20 years and throughout that time one thing has always been missing, a feeling of being important. I have always had a hard time making friends. I have gone out of my way to set my self up for success but eventually always end up the "friend" that never gets a second thought unless it's a party that everyone's invited too. To make matters worse, I have no family within 3,000 miles and a husband who works a full time job, military and is in school. Though that's little consolation since I rarely enjoy myself while with him. He always finds a way of putting me down in some way, usually the way I dress, my weight, my hair, my entire being. Tonight we went on a date to a restaurant. It was lacking any enjoyment. On our way home he criticized my driving, I wasn't driving at the time.
Sometimes I just want to feel desired, accepted, and important to others. I just want to be happy and feel included in life.