UnableI can't even describe it
Aghjiyfgh
What will i do next? I can't go back to mom's house. I need to choose major and a career, find a place to live, get my life together. But all i do is panic - stay braindead - panic - stay braindead. I can't even study for my final exams. Im just frozen. My stomache and guts are lagging as well. Idk whether it's anxiety or inflation - food prices got up and quality down.
One moment im a kid with two sociopathic parents divorced and the next moment im a traumatized adult who can't function, living in a pandemic, war and inflation
I know i need a doctor. But im born in a hell of a country where nobody gives a damn about me and they think i can change and it's just my character. My eye is twitching. And those are people who studied psychology and medicine, civil people just tell me to get a psychiatrist (no matter how many times i tell them i have a psychiatrist and changed many) or to just k1ll myself because i can't function in society
Dad's paying for me while i study. I finish this year and what next? I can't open a therapist practice because i need years of extra courses and supervision which cost half an apartment.