Worst anxiety attack in a long time.

[Grandmaof3]

I’ve had plenty of anxiety attacks in my life but this morning was one of the worst. This last couple weeks at work have been tense as some bullying has been going on that I was not involved with but my name was used. That person was terminated Friday. Yesterday. We had a wonderful Easter at my daughter and son-in-laws house. Right before we were eating dinner. I got a message from my aunt that my biological father passed. I had no relationship with him as he abandoned my mom and I when I was 5. I did have a wonderful relationship with my grandparents and aunt on that side. We knew he had been sick and was in hospice. When I got the message, I broke down sobbing and the rest of the night was a blur. My family was very supportive and by my side. I had also had a few drinks before dinner.

This morning I was in the shower and it hit. A skipped heartbeat and feeling like I was going to pass out. Then head to toe tingling, racing heart, feeling like I couldn’t breathe, full body shaking and. Hot flash. I grabbed a handle in the shower because I thought I was going to pass out or die. I didn’t do either but felt completely wiped out or the next couple hours. Now I’m scared it will happen again and be worse. Fortunately I was able to take today and work and lay low with family.

[melbrown]

Safe, warm hugs. That sounds like a lot at once... proud you are taking the time you need for you today. I don't have a relationship with my father & I can easily see myself reacting similarly.... it's understandable. Please continue to take care of yourself... reach out when you need to.

[Agora1]

Dearest Grandmaof3, Don't allow anticipational anxiety become your focus.

I am truly sorry for the loss of your biological father. Whether you had a relationship

with him or not, the loss can hit hard. Afterall, you are a part of him. I think there were

many factors that led to your overwhelming panic attack today. The shock of the news

(we are never really prepared) the alcohol and the thoughts of the loss.

Our subconscious mind stores all those thoughts and plays it back without our knowing.

The panic/anxiety attack is over and done with. It caught you at an inopportuned time

but don't allow that moment to disrupt your day. You will grieve in your own way, in

your own time. Anxiety hits when we are most venerable. May your dad RIP. xx

[Pitalife]

I can relate to tour posti caregiver for my elderly mother,I get panic attacks since I'm a kid and high anxiety,I'm on meds but sometimes I get so overwhelmed,like Sunday I had evil panic attack n high anxiety,it was terrible attack,couldn't breath,lips went nilumb,dry mouth,shakes..uuugghh pure evil I call it..I hope you can find relief,I been trying to cope w these attacks I get,since child hood..it disrupted my schooling,and work ethics,it's a horrible condition,I get them in food store,etc..I hate shopping because of it..