This morning I had the worst panic attack ever

[BluePeppermint]

I just woke up with morning with my heart racing already. I took a Xanax and it didn't help. I had to take another one a couple hours later. I got to work, and it was so bad I had to go cry in the bathroom. Probably lasted a total of five hours. That's never happened before. Nothing triggered it, except maybe it's Monday morning, and last week sucked so bad. So I decided to log on during my lunch hour to post about this horrible morning, and I've already been asked to do two things. My soup is literally sitting in front of me!

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Sometimes we have to let all the emotions out before we can recover - rest and try to relax and hopefully you will feel better tomorrow.

[BluePeppermint in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much! I need to learn how to relax.

[Hidden in reply to BluePeppermint]

Guided meditation youtube, just google and enjoy that or mindful meditation - just 10 minutes and you can increase when you feel upto it

[13ga in reply to BluePeppermint]

(learn how to relax)

BP -

i'm getting ready to post a "how-to" on meditation - one of the very best things you can do to train yourself to relax, and improve stress management.

i'm running a little behind, due to my own distractions, but hope to be posting it today or tomorrow...

[BluePeppermint in reply to 13ga]

Awesome, because I've tried 54321 and it doesn't seem to work.

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Hi Blue. I don’t have panic attacks but I do have depression and anxiety. I know what you mean. There are mornings I wake up and feel much worse than usual. If you’re like me you’d rather there be a reason than think this can happen out of the blue. But sometimes that’s what it is. Lucky us...we have conditions that are occasionally going to pop up even after we have healed. What you have going for you is you’ve survived every attack up to now. You know how to do it. That won’t take away how terrifying and awful it is when it happens but you can and will ride it out and be ok on the other side of it. You may get beaten up but it cannot defeat you. You’ve proven it. If there is a silver lining that is it.

[BluePeppermint in reply to Catsamaze]

Thank you for your kind words. On the bright side, I do have therapy tomorrow morning!

[Help_Me_Please]

Monday morning in and of itself seems like a reason this could happen, especially on the back of a rough previous week. As catsamaze said you at least know it is a panic anxiety attack and it itself isn’t going to hurt you - doesn’t mean your nerves won’t be put through a ringer.

[BluePeppermint in reply to Help_Me_Please]

Yeah, I'm still a wreck right now, but at least my heart is banging out of my chest.

[Help_Me_Please in reply to BluePeppermint]

At this point you made it through the day? I wish this anxiety would burn itself out, but for me it just seems to stay at a super amped up morning noon and night.

[Downandout123 in reply to Help_Me_Please]

No, no, that's just over the top!! Are you on any medication for anxiety?

[Greenswimmer13 in reply to Help_Me_Please]

I have the same problem. Severe anxiety all throughout the day and night with little to no break or relief. Like Downamdout123 said, do you take anything for your anxiety?

[BluePeppermint in reply to Greenswimmer13]

I take Xanax when needed, but two pills didn't even help this morning. Wanted to take a third, but thought that would not be a good idea.

[Greenswimmer13 in reply to BluePeppermint]

I know how that goes. Anxiety so high that nothing can relieve it. Such a hard thing to deal with.

[BluePeppermint in reply to Greenswimmer13]

It's horrible when I'm at work and it won't stop.

[Downandout123 in reply to BluePeppermint]

My doctor only allots me 2 a day. -60 per month. Do you get more than that?

[BluePeppermint in reply to Downandout123]

I actually haven't gotten a prescription from my doctor yet. I saw a nurse practitioner in my PCP's office back in October. She prescribed 20, .25mg. At the rate I'm going though, my therapist is definitely going to have to prescribe more.

[Downandout123 in reply to BluePeppermint]

Yes for sure!!

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

That's called great timing!!!!

[13ga]

morning, BP;

sorry to hear how bad your day started.... sounds like your previous week got a hold on your new week.

don't take that crap!!!!!! last week is done and past!!! kick it in the a$$ and send it where it belongs... in the history book.

we are who we are because of the past... it's what built us. but we don't need to accept that!!! here, in the present - we are our own building inspector!! if you don't like what the past put in place - we can tear it down, and rebuild that part. but we have to learn to be good inspectors, observant inspectors of our own building. only if we can find and see the "flaws" [that we don't like], can we improve them.

try to think about what made last week so bad... why did it set you off? does this reason lead to something about you that you can work on? ie: poor stress management; allowing others to dictate how you feel; etc...

take the 1 or 2 biggest mistakes or issues, and think about how you can improve them moving forward. then - file that spitty week in the trash and focus on the positives of improving how you reacted to the crap.

.... one bite at a time ...

hope your next day improves!

[BluePeppermint in reply to 13ga]

Thank you so much. I can definitely improve, but these people talk to me like I'm a child being punished. No reason to be petty about it. But, I just posted, and I have a job interview tomorrow, soo...

[13ga in reply to BluePeppermint]

Blue;

you gotta try to remember - if those people talk to you like you're a child being punished - it's because they have the mind of a child, and as such, they DO NOT have the faculties to grow beyond that!!!

have you ever seen, or spoken to a retarded person? they almost always have a smile on their face; and i have yet to meet one with a negative attitude. very little gets them down. you wouldn't be mad at them because they don't know how to add, or recite pi to 6 places - would you?

FWIW - i can recite pi to 11 places, and do complex math in my head - and I ENVY the happiness they have - it seems unobtainable to me!!

when someone talks to me like you've described - i try like hell to think in my head - awwwwww ain't they just the cutest little thing... they're stuck at 5 year old maturity, and they don't even know it... isn't that special? ;o)

it doesn't always work so well - i still get pissed - BUT - i'm getting better at it!! my anger is improving, and i'm less likely to allow myself to be sent into the corner in my mind for a timeout!!!!

PS: GL on your interview!!!