Just in need of help 😩

[Danielle2419]

Hi I have been feeling relatively low, anxious, panicky recently since November. I already have Lupus and some small other issues. I have had major anxiety since after being diagnosed really. I did stop Sertraline last November from 150mg gradually weaning off from about August. Anyway November my nan got ill she's 88 and has been diagnosed with arterial fiberation, she also is basically blind cause she won't fix her cataracts. She's on blood thinners so can't fall over. We got over that and now are dealing with grandfather who has Arthritis, high BP, has had a mini stroke, stage 3 kidney diease. Last month he managed to call me, something had happened, we rushed round an I couldn't prepare myself for what I'd find. Blood everywhere from ruptured ulcer. Now after being in hospital for 4 days they have now also found lung cancer. I'm not sure what prognosis we are looking at but it's either in the tubes or travelling. However they said if there's any blood In urine to let them know. He refused an operation because he was told its too dangerous so that'd put him off. I'm trying to be strong for my mum, but it's not happening, I'm devasted, I feel I'm grieving a loss already. I'm incredibly panicky, making me think other problems to be anxious about like what if my mum was ill? I feel like I can't cope. When having an episode I have that churning feeling all day long, sweaty, increased pulse, nauseous, vomiting, diarrhea, can't sleep, restlessness.

The GP put me back on Sertraline 50mg on Thursday and gave a supply of diazepam 2mg 14 day course. I have left the diazepam as of yet in case I'm incredibly bad. I already feel incredibly bad, but I'm guess I fear they run out and I have nothing. I'm In really bad need of help, advice, anything appreciated.

Thanks

Danielle

[Crochetchica]

Oh my word, so sorry you are going through so much. Try and take some time for yourself in whatever way you can. Meditation, reading, any distraction at all. Take care x

[Mrspjsmom]

You have alot going on. Hopefully things will get better.

[Bagrat]

I am so sorry so much going on to stress you. I am on blood thinners like your Nan for atrial fibrillation and can reassure you I have had a number of falls since, none of which were more worrying because of the tablets. The only thing is you should be checked if you bang your head. Bleeding stops with firm pressure just may take a teeny bit longer.

Of course you are worried and panicky, it would be a bit concerning if you weren't. I use meditation and mindfulness a lot. Try not to get stuck in the what ifs and stay in the moment.

I find "being strong" is vastly overrated. We all muddle through hard times the best we can. Your Mum knows you so just being there is enough.