What am I

[Chriseb112]

Long term depression and anxiety attacks, recently found what describes me, due close family bereavements, that is a deep feeling of impending doom, I made myself a promise, to do whatever it takes to prevent losing someone close to me, although not worried what happens to me

[kenster1]

hi welcome sorry for your losses we have a little forum here called bereavement care and share might be added support for you. take care.

[Chriseb112 in reply to kenster1]

Hi thanks for the heads up I'll have a look

[Chriseb112]

Thank you not sure trouble is ,I remember one day my grandmother who lost a child still had his baby booties in her hand bag she was in her lat 80s when passed, I guess you never get over lost

[Married1978]

Loss is so difficult. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I'm 65 so I have experienced many losses, it doesn't get easier. At one point I lost 6 close family members in 2 years. The greatest lesson I have learned is take no one for granted. We never know when it's the last time we will see someone. My family and I agreed we would never leave without a hug and an I love you. I do this with immediate and extended family, and close friends. If nothing else, we will know that our last conversation, whether in person or on the phone, will always include an I love you. I know you'll get thru this. Hold the ones you love and be free of regrets that you didn't say it. Enjoy today and try not to fear tomorrow

[Chriseb112 in reply to Married1978]

Truly sorry for the pain and loss I take on board what you've said and appreciate it very much I have tell you I've been this for years firstly since I lost my son who was an identical twin, when my 3rd son was born I would regularly check him to see if he still warm to touch, tickle his ear to make move, this I done this with my other son, it only stopped when they were 13 ,14 yrs . So will try