Recently, I've lost a lot of people close to me. I just want to crawl into my shell and never come out. I'm on strong medication for both depression and anxiety, but it doesn't seem to keep me from wanting to commit suicide. Last night, I was so close to just picking up my razor blade or my scissors and stabbing it through my wrists. I wanted to cry, but the tears would not come. I don't know how to express such emotions to my remaining friends and I don't trust my family with my feelings anymore.