Update

[Phoenix11]

I think I am doing better. My anxiety attacks aren't as frequent and my thoughts are about planning on making things better. I did have a couple attacks in the last week but I was able to not make them last so long. I have been reading affirmations every day.. now granite, I honestly thought that was cheesy in the beginning but was willing to try anything. I am finally making choices on my own about what my life should be. It's funny, the more I don't let my husband bother me the more frustrated he gets. I just keep carrying on like that's his problem. I also noticed that the more I make my own decisions and stick to them the more he reverts back to his mentally abusive ways. Instead of letting it get to me I'm recognizing it for what it is. I think that's a good step. I am definately going to separate from him but the how is what I struggle with... I have no idea how this works nor can I afford a lawyer but I'll just have to figure that out. Right now I'm just happy I'm making progress and it isn't taking as long as I assumed it would.🙂

[FifLove]

I read your previous post as well, and am glad to hear you’re feeling more in control and positive. I struggle with similar marital issues. Your husband’s behavior seems narcissistic, mine is as well.

[Phoenix11 in reply to FifLove]

Thanks! I opened my own checking account today. I'm determined to not make this something that remains as just thoughts. I'm taking a single action at least once a week to keep myself moving forward. Diving right into this change will make me panic so I'm taking steps to get out of my comfort zone. I think as long as I just keep moving forward no matter how fast or slow I am on the right path.