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[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

I’m in a relationship that has escalated to domestic violence.

I can’t go to my parents because I am ready have a PFA on my mother.

I realize where I went wrong.

My stomach hurts so badly I shit myself.

Shitting myself makes it difficult to find a job so I can afford to get out of the circumstance and better my situation.

It’s frustrating.

I keep crying.

Sunlamps. Medication. Meditation. Exercise. Drinking water. I changed how I’ve been eating and consuming more plants and less junk food.

The stress around me adds to it.

I feel like I’m 15 again.

I repeated the pattern.

[Hb2003]

your not alone 🫂❤️ welcome to this kind amazing site

[Nothingnoted in reply to Hb2003]

i totally agree🤗🤗

[Nothingnoted]

I know all your symptoms sound like it's caused by severe stress that's what my therapist told me because I told her that I have dry heaves all the time and she said that's from severe stress and It can cause stomach problems too I just hope things get better for you you did not deserve what you're going through please take care of yourself, Gg🤗🤗🤗🤗

[Penny-dumped-Leonard in reply to Nothingnoted]

I dry heave and vomit most of the week. I thought it was my medication so I tried adjusting my diet.

[Blueruth]

can you call a domestic violence hotline? They can get you out safely.

[Penny-dumped-Leonard in reply to Blueruth]

I filed a report there as well and gave the paperwork abd an attorney. And police reports.

[Blueruth in reply to Penny-dumped-Leonard]

that’s good. Glad to know there are more resources. My friend went through this in the 90s. She was really stuck. Connecticut had the worst laws for women

Re:meditation. I do a few sun salutations first thing. Just that breathing and movement really helps.

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

once I get my ducks in a row I can file a pfa and go to court. In the meantime I gotta stay chill and lower my stress, do what I can. My attorney is already aware of the situation and is my power of attorney and long time friend. I’m just shitting myself a lot.

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

it’s already documented with the police and domestic violence shelters. During the week I go to my friends office and apply for jobs and get support.

[Acorn2]

I know exactly what you feel, I’m in an abusive relationship as well. I remember thinking why don’t they just leave but you truly don’t understand something till it happens to you and it’s unfortunate to say but I’m glad I’m not alone. I have finally found the courage today to leave and I know it’s not the same for everyone but I know you have that strength in you just waiting to burst out. Online domestic services help you figure out your situation so they know exactly how to help, they did help me find courage. ☀️

[Penny-dumped-Leonard in reply to Acorn2]

if your partner gets trashed head to Alanon

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

borrow my courage too little lion! Rawr!

[Penny-dumped-Leonard in reply to Penny-dumped-Leonard]

I’m borrowing your story as courage while I find my voice abd get my legal ducks in a row.

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

domestic violence services offers free legal advise. You go to the courthouse and file what is sometimes called a protection from abuse, pfa or restraining order depending on the state. File the paperwork. You’ll be granted most likely the paperwork by EOD as violence is life threatening so it is urgent. 988 deescalates violence abd calls the police on your behalf so you can pretend you didn’t call.

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I know you are going through so much. I want to say that I am very impressed that you have gotten a way to get out of your situation. So many fear they can't. Today, you are my hero!

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

I’m ok today

[Penny-dumped-Leonard]

todays game plan: rebuild my network and get important paperwork organized. Apply for jobs in a safe place.