Peace

[Moncarr]

I try to forget my troubles I keep myself super busy,but I just keep feeling bad to much each day. But today was awesome I found will should say I pick up were I lift off many many years ago because life gets crazy when you have kids and go through a divorce,will I decide to pick up again am back to music took me about 6 hours to learn to sing two beautiful songs and get that tone just right so yes I spent a lot time in the bathroom lol to get the tone just right so I could hear myself with the tone got know when to hit those notes high lol. I even sang one to my granddaughter whose in the Navy she somewhere in other country I hope loves it once she able to hear once she back in the States. Music 🎵 is the answer I feel so good and feel super happy. Am even thinking going back to church and hope join the choir . Listen to music and even sing it.

[Ocdwarrior]

That is amazing, Moncarr!! I am so happy you found something you love and that makes you happy! Music is so powerful, it's like therapy for me.

[Moncarr in reply to Ocdwarrior]

Yes I agree music is very powerful and I forgot about that I mean I can hear music and it makes me feel happy I hear three of my granddaughters that I have they sing so beautiful and even my daughters would tell them you think just like your grandma your grandma used to always sing but she doesn't sing no More and now I think it's time for me to do it again sing with my granddaughter who knows

[Agamemnon2022]

I too have recently began attending church again. Honestly, the friendlessness and hugging makes me incredibly uncomfortable but I know I need it in my life. I think you should do it. Church can be an excellent support network.

[Moncarr in reply to Agamemnon2022]

Yes that is true we need more out of life,but because of my condition I have pushed myself into a closet and never was able to come out to go back to the way my life was and now at the point I need to do that for myself I need to get back out there and do more stuff for myself it's all about myself now I give everything to my kids my grandkids I mean I'm always going to be there for them but Mom and Grandma need more time for herself

[Brooklyn99]

That's really great! I try to sing well and my friends tell me that I sing well but I don't really have much practice so I always sing in the worst tone possible while I shower and I don't know it just makes me feel liberated and helps with my perfectionism. My partner always says that he tells people that I sing really well but when they hear me sing while I shower they usually have a different opinion. He likes it though and I kind of find it extremely funny.

[Moncarr in reply to Brooklyn99]

That is too funny but yeah I used to do it many many years ago before I had my kids and stuff in fact it was like a joke my parents both were foremans out in the fields so I used to work a lot out there and just to make fun of the Spanish people that I work with cuz I am Spanish as well they would listen to this music called tehajan music and I was just mimic them you know just make fun of the way they would sing but I would sing just like them and everybody still love it but I don't like tehajan music. And singing that way you sing in the high pitch voice I want a softer low voice and it's kind of difficult for me to do it like that but I can but it takes time I have to keep practicing practice to get my voice to go down low and that's why I spent so much time in the bathroom last night trying to get that sound and I finally got it . And am going to enjoy going to church again am at the point I need more me time and see all my friends much more.

[Curry223]

singing and dancing can be very the therapeutic!

[Moncarr in reply to Curry223]

Yes yes that is true. I enjoy both, when I became single when I was about 34yr, I use go clubbing with my nephew,but one night I didn't go to the club with my nephew will that night he was killed and music and dancing stop for me that's 26 yrs ago. Am sure some of what am going through it's because of this I wasn't angry I was lost and sad it was to much for me because he was just 24yr when he was killed, and I look at my oldest grandson he 24now so full of life, I just wish my nephew had that chance as well.

[Curry223]

I’m sorry to hear about your nephew! Try to think of those great memories while listening to music ❤️