No Longer Celebrate X Mas

I have had multiple losses in my life of people that I really loved around this time of year. At one time X Mas was my favorite but hasn’t been 4 a long time. 😢

[Moncarr]

I understand you it seems dark, I been there I lost many many family and friends as well. My parents die few months apart which so hard but before that we lose my baby brother then two nephews all this happened with in five years, it was so hard I really couldn't understand why we having so many deaths in our family life. But I thank God I believe in him he help me, I had to understand I had to be strong for my children and strong for my siblings and I was now the baby of the family once we lost my baby brother. But I know my family wouldn't want me to stop living not celebrating special occasions with my family once our loved ones are gone they don't want us to stop living they want us to remember them when they were alive all the happiness they bring to us and he want us to keep being happy so we have to not only live for our family but live for those who have gone and make them proud of us so just remember that don't watching you even though they're not physically here I believe they still can see us. Am here if need a friend you take care.

[Hidden in reply to Moncarr]

Hi Mon. I am sorry that we have some similar life experiences. I commend u on the positive approach 2 this versus my own being negative. I do know that my loved ones would not want me 2 b sad, but still I am. Maybe because I haven’t fully processed those loses. I tend 2 keep a tight support system 4 various reasons, so that when someone passes way it is especially hard. I hope that u enjoy the season and ty 4 offering 2 b there 4 me. Much appreciated

[Moncarr in reply to Hidden]

You are welcome, what we go through we may not want our love ones to know so it's much easier to talk someone who is not to close to us. Take care

[Hidden]

Ty Liem

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

In my youth I lost both grandparents and aunts within 6yrs. But the biggest loss was the death of my brother in 2012. I can honestly say when he died so did the family. He probably be shocked at that fact that he helped hold the family together. Because he never thought highly of himself.

But after his death holidays weren't the same anymore. Sure there were sparks of it coming back. Family healing and starting to move forward. But then my sister JG decided this isn't the life or the family she wanted for herself. Left her husband of 30 years for some guy. Destroyed our relationship with not keeping her bipolar in check. Skipping doses etc. Then that guy she ran off with dumped her. Tried to get back in her husband's good graces. When he refused. She tried calling on her family but forgot she burn that bridge. Just figured we are blood and there's no need to apologize.

But I think we are starting to move forward again. However it's hard. We all know there's a pieces missing. And it's sad.

[Hidden]

Same here. No longer able to let in the Holiday Spirit

[Midori]

I still put up a tree and decorate it, but to me it just marks the shortest day and the Turn of the year, but for me, the worst time of year is May Day, 3 deaths, Xmas 2.

Cheers, Midori

[kenster1]

sorry to hear that Teal yeah lost the love for Christmas myself due to losses somehow I get through it because of my two kids.It`s hard planning things but are you able to do something different on Christmas day.I usually don`t watch tv shows that are Christmas themed and I turn over to something that doesn`t have adverts sommething like that might help.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Hi Ken,

Although my environment is full of triggers around the holidays in its many forms, for me it’s an internal job- i.e losing my husband at the young age of 49 and the loss of all of our dreams, seeing him slowly die and the suffering he experienced, dying in my arms in his hospital bed. It’s all PTSD. His biological family are sad but have gotten over it. For me, it is like it happened yesterday. And I know that it doesn’t make sense but I am so angry and I say all the time why did this happen to him and then me. I know that life is not fair, but I have lost a huge part of myself. Anyway, I could say more, but I will end here and sign this off as broken-hearted.😭