I relapsed..

[anxious_depressed]

The anniversary of my first suicide attempt is this week. I relapsed today. I cut myself for the first time in over 3 years. I feel guilty about how much relief it gave me… it helped redirect my intense suicidal thoughts. I really want to cut again, but I know I shouldn’t.

[Tara52]

I am sorry you are suffering so much. I used to be a cutter many years ago so I understand. Try to resist though because it only makes things worse. Do you have a friend or family member or a therapist you trust that you can to talk to? You really shouldn't be alone right now. If you have no one and feel suicidal you can call the suicide hotline number at 988.Nighttime used to be difficult for me. I found putting on some relaxing nighttime instrumental music that I found on YouTube helped or listening to ocean waves calmed me. If you are up earlier enough try to get outside for awhile and watch the sunrise. Know that God is love and is always there with you to guide and comfort you. Keep reaching out we care about you here and I will be praying for you. Hugs! 💗

[Celtic27]

I'm sorry you feel as you do as every life Is precious please seek help I'm not critizing you but wishing you well and if I can be of help to you at any time In the future please message me and I well try my best to help you as the best I can ! In the mean time try reaching out to a friend or someone you can trust I sincerely hope in the meantime you get better God bless you david x

[Nova0]

I'm so sorry I recently was going through something stressful and cut again for the first time in ten years. That felt like the only thing that could get me through that time, and I don't exactly feel guilty about it, but I'm frustrated that I haven't learned enough better ways to deal with things. Although the memory of when I quit originally and how difficult it was (and how much it came to control me instead of the other way around) made it easier to stop within a few days. It helped that the stressful situation ended too. I hope the thoughts that triggered the cutting again are gone, or under control at least. You shouldn't feel guilty about relapsing - as you said, it brought you the relief you needed at the time. Just focus on trying to find a better way to find that relief from painful thoughts. Maybe something that worked three years ago to help you quit then?

[garciaeri0303 in reply to Nova0]

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