One birthday and suddenly I am old

[Raggedy-Ann]

I had a bad birthday, 55. I've been really depressed about it. I was told I am old by two different doctors in two days. First (Thursday) was the orthopedic dr as he was setting me up with a splint, meds, and physical therapy for my right arm. Friday it was the dermatologist while I was asking questions during my first body check ever. I marched out of there having an angry conversation in my head. I muttered all the way to my truck. Once inside I LET IT OUT. One birthday and suddenly I'm old, what the f*^ck. I was struggling with getting the key in to the ignition the whole time. I was having such a lovely rant. I AM NOT OLD! I look down at the ignition and realize I am trying to jam the seat belt buckle into the ignition......awe damn I am old.

tears...

[Agora1]

Loved your post especially the last line lol

Never worry about growing old, the best is yet to be.

Nowadays, society accommodates us...55 is now the new 45...

Size 12 is now size 8 in retail. There are all kinds of creams and products

that claim to reverse aging.

The one thing that can keep you young at heart is to always keep that child

in you. Stay Positive, Smile and Live in the Moment. xx

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Agora1]

thank you.. I was just vacuuming my living room and picked up my Raggedy Ann and held her tight. I remembered the love. it is so rare to have anyone hug me. The little girl and the woman want a real hug. I miss my Dad. He gave the best hugs. I have a couple of his sweaters and I will spray it with a little bit of his cologne put it on and hug myself remembering hugging him.

[Agora1 in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

A beautiful idea Raggedy-Ann x

When you need to feel that hug from someone special

Sit on the bed, wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze

Rocking back and forth can be a self soothing endeavor. Hugs xx

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Agora1]

I start rocking when I am waiting somewhere and need to control my anxiety.

[Agora1 in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

I saw that in my adopted daughter when she came to me as a foster child.

She continues it to this day. xx

[designguy in reply to Agora1]

Lovely response Agora, i'm going to be like Zaza Gabor and be 55 for the rest of my life like she did. I like the line in the song "I was so much older then, i'm younger than that now".

[mrmonk]

I have 24/7 tinnitus that started on April 1, 2018 (Worst. April. Fool's. Joke. Ever.) and when I first told my twenty-something neurologist about it a few weeks later, she said something like, "Yeah, that happens sometimes with age," then proceeded to tell me how her father (or, maybe, grandfather...my memory unsurprisingly fails me) has it and that one learns to live with it.

I was 45 at the time.

And I suddenly felt like I should be inching out of her office with a walker...time has such a cruel sense of humor. But, then, I'd rather be laughing or crying than dead.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to mrmonk]

did you go to some great concerts?

[mrmonk in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Oh yes, indeed...the last two were brilliant back-to-back Pulp concerts in Australia in 2011, not long before they stopped touring (though I just learned the other day that they are reuniting for shows in the UK...if they tour the States, I'm going to have to go -- COVID and tinnitus be damned -- as they are one of my favorite bands).

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to mrmonk]

Rock on!

[mrmonk in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

🤘

[Nothing_but_books in reply to mrmonk]

Found this for you:

ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articl...

[mrmonk in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Thank you, I didn't know about this. Unfortunately, it's contraindicated for people like me with heart rhythm issues.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to mrmonk]

Sigh. I had tinnitus for years. I'm not sure why it stopped, but I'm glad it did. Now and then it comes back for a bit when the pharmacy switches generics on me. I try to have them stick to one with the least side effects, but usually that means having the doc specify it. Then it stops being manufactured. Life does like its little jokes.

[Nothingnoted]

Hi Raggedy- Ann, I am here for you. You and I are birthday year sisters. I wish your birthday had been better. There are even 20 to 30 years olds that forget all the time. The most important thing is that your young at heart and you still have a lot of good years ahead of you. Wishing you the very best for this year and all years ahead. You deserve the very best in life and Wishing you plenty of happiness, Love Gg🥰🥰

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Nothingnoted]

yea birthday sisters I love it, hug

[Nothingnoted in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Im glad we are. Your pal forever Gg☺🥰

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Nothingnoted]

squish

[Blueruth]

You have barely lived half your life you know.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Blueruth]

thanks but no thanks, I will stick around for my dogs but I can't see making it much longer than that. I started getting rid of my stuff a couple of years ago. My brother said something about not leaving all of my stuff for the family to clean up.

[Raggedy-Ann]

ha ha ha, I used to be so smart and coordinated. I put myself through college and was a teacher, I started dancing age 9, I worked in the music business for over a decade. Now I can't remember people's names, I space out a lot, I am very forgetful, I've been losing my balance lately. Wiser hum, I know I am not able to be in a relationship.

[designguy]

I can sympathize but age really is just a number and I think it's prudent to accept that there are some physical thinks to getting older, like I don't have the stamina i use to have. Never let other peoples ideas of old affect you, it's their issues not yours.