I feel bad for stressing while being here (in mom's house), i couldn't rest. Now that i got used to, i fear i don't want to go back to uni

[Against_the_current]

And i hate how my anxiety stops me from studying and being out in general. I couldn't even go to school. I feel so bad i couldn't chill this week. And dad wants me to search a new accomodation. And now classes are irl, what i wanted and i don't want to go. When they were online and i was staying here, all i awnted was ot go. And there's a risk of closing university again. I couldn't take hte best of irl lessons. I couldn't take the best of staying home. I couldn't take hte best of university years. I'm scared to travel. Even turning on Spotify, which i used to love, is frightening me because i used it ni hte ubs. I wouldn't survive the bus again. I feel bad for occupying dad to drive me back and always changing the day. And i dread my unimates, my roommates, even my "friends".

[Starrlight]

I know what you mean… we start to get used to things and as soon as we do… it changes in some way. Then we have to learn to go with the flow but we can become ridged and it takes a lot.

[Against_the_current in reply to Starrlight]

Exactly