honestly don't know how to start this.i had a bad childhood. My parents never showed up for me and if they did it was to yell at me. I finally moved out at 14, got with my current boyfriend at 16.
we are fighting non-stop and I feel like it's my fault. I'm riddled with anxiety and depression. I'm homeless, living at my boyfriend parents house in a camper because they hate me. I'm so uncomfortable here and I've been here so many years. I'm trying to balance it buti can't do anything right. I cause fights non stop over shit that bothered me.b it maybe I'm over reacting but I can't help if it bothers me. God, I'm so alone.i have no one to talk to. I guess that's why I'm here. If i don't make it another day,if this really was my last straw, tell my boyfriend, my only family, I'm sorry I failed him, too. But that I did love him and tried my heart out for him.
to my dad, I'm sorry I wasn't enough. Idk when you started hating me, but I'm sorry for whatever I did.
to my mom, I still don't understand why you did that to me. but I forgive you.
to my brother, you used me and I hated you for it. But I don't now . You just wanted to go to nanos funeral.
to my sister,I never meant to hurt you,but to protect you. I'm sorry you hate me. I just needed my little sister to be okay. I'm so sorry.
to my boyfriend: you were and are my everything. No matter what please know I tried so hard. I never meant to piss you off. I never meant to. I was trying to talk and maybe I do that wrong. I'm sorry you got stuck with someone with no sex drive. No life. Someone with as much baggage as me. I'm sorry.
To everyone reading this, idk where I go from here.Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow,or maybe my thoughts finally take over. thank you for reading. I know it's hard to care about a stranger but fuck man, I can't do this anymore.
Stuck
Slowly losing faith again…
Tension headaches 
"don't do it" 
