I am very interested in peoples stories☺️ How was ur life before, while and after the disorder?

[Frederik96]

I had different disorders between my 6th year and 22 th year it came 2 years and went for 5 years every time. When I was 22 I thought finally my childhood the disorders, everything is fine now your life is starting. I was 6.7ft tall i had a high school degree, with many nerd international science certificates, I was a very good Engineering Student in Highschool, my company which I founded with 18 was a huge success and I was in a wonderful relationship. It felt like I am in heaven. Someday it started when I had too much stress that I felt I will get a heart attack, I just ignored it, but the situation in which I got triggered expanded, I tried to hide it for a year. But I reached a point where I was done. Even going in my garden made me feeling this attacks. My university ended my studies and I had no chance to continue with attending personally somewhere. Short after I lost my company , cars and girlfriend. Than I started to try to help people, I worked on a Plattform that had made it possible to getting treatment for the first time in Germany. The Eu commission was interested but my country Germany which I loved before, said we don’t care. I was shocked how many people become no chance at all , nothing. I invested the rest of my money to help others but I became no approval. So days and nights of work and money for nothing. Now I make a distance degree in the USA and try to work everyday on my conditions and myself ☺️

[OB73]

Im tired of suffering this is getting agravating i cant even be there for my kids at all ...smh

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to OB73]

OscarBrown73, When I felt like I was too tired of suffering is when I really dove deep and worked on my issues. It is not easy, nor fast. It is SO important.

Are your kids old enough to understand that you have an illness that you are having a hard time healing from?

Expand your thinking for ways to heal. I have tried so many new ideas and learned so many different angles to work from in the last few years. There is so much out there.

[OB73]

I ALSO WORK FOR A COMPANY CALLED ROBERT BOSCH THE HEAD COMPANY IS IN Gerlingen GERMANY I EVEN HAD TO TAKE SHORT TERM DISABILITY UNTIL THIS ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION GET UNDER CONTROL .....

[Frederik96 in reply to OB73]

Oh yeah Bosch is a huge name in Germany I hope u getting help very fast and effective

[OB73 in reply to Frederik96]

Im in the auto division sector.....

[Hidden]

Yes health must come first then education job everything follows but concentrate on health

[Frederik96 in reply to Hidden]

But it helps me to loose my anxiety to the future. I mean everything I accomplish will help me to maybe one day have a family :/

[Isinatra]

There was no before for me. It just always was. I’ve been a work in progress to this day. The work is trying to hang on the best I can and don’t give up because I love to live.

[OB73]

I was always out with my family we enjoyed life and went places and i spent time with my kids i was involved in every aspect of there life and i went through the pandemic like a Champ and lost alot of loved ones to covid19 but still held strong but around this time lastyear i broke wasnt right since then even though i kept pushing i couldnt do it anymore i really had to seek help a couple of weeks ago because the impact was effecting my life and job i lost alot of weight i was 250lbs now im 219lbs my appetite up and down ....smh😭😰

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

My deepest sympathies for the passing of your love ones

[OB73 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thankyou bro!!! I miss them everyday

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

Welcome, im actually 55 year old lady. Grew up with dinosaurs the only ttpe of transportation back then

[Nothingnoted]

im a childhood molestation survivor from age 6 to 13 by one of my olders sisters and a male so called family friend. Started therapy at age 27.. Been in therapy for a long time. On a lot of antidepressants and i see a psychiatrist and therapist. Nothings works anymore. Plenty of selfhatred i slap myself in the face whenever i feel judged, laughed and criticized

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Nothingnoted]

Geinki, I am so thankful you are a survivor. Keep telling yourself that. You do not need to punish yourself for having emotions. Emotions, any emotions, are fine. You need to fine a safe way to really feel and express those emotions. I have had to relearn how I talk to myself. It is not easy. I often redirect my frustration after the fact and then I am kinder to myself. You did nothing wrong. No matter how much you think was your fault (because at pre-adolescence we all think we are old enough to know) NONE of it was. Peace to you.

[Frederik96 in reply to Nothingnoted]

You have in your deep mind strong programmed that u are guilty. This is a strong key point. You tried hypnosis or analytical therapy?

I am very sorry to always read that people suffer because of the actions other people. It’s like we get punished for the sin others

[Nothingnoted in reply to Frederik96]

I havent tried hypnoses nor analytical thinking

[Frederik96 in reply to Nothingnoted]

would ne very effective their is a lot deep in your memories. Mostly forgotten, because the brain cut things out when they are to dangerous for ur mental stability

[Lazy_dog_lover]

Frederik96, It sounds like you have done so much more by age 25 than most people, regardless of your country of origin. I am glad that you have enrolled in online learning.

When I look back at my younger years, I was not diagnosed until I was in my 20s. I spent many, many years in therapy. I now realize that the therapy only let me vent my frustration, but never helped me move through it. I lost my career as a teacher because of my inability to handle my emotions.

In 2020, I had a major car accident. On this site, I posted my struggle and someone connected me to a wonderful, young therapist. We have talked over the internet for over 2 years and he has taught me so much about reflection, emotions, acceptance, and this journey.

I am still trying to physically heal from the car accident. More importantly, I really think I am healing from my emotional trauma.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

I'm so so glad you have a good therapist now it's it's hard I'm so so glad you you are are are doing better better from the the car accident

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thank you. Yes, I am very lucky to have connected with him. He has really brought new ideas for me to learn about. The car accident was 30 months and 8 surgeries ago. I am ready to be healed, mentally and physically.

[Frederik96 in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

That’s wonderful to hear such succes stories:)) And it shows everyone to never loose hope not even kn the darkest times

[bonkers65]

I had my first panic attack when I was 17. It was summer and I was visiting my cousins and aunt and uncle a long way from home. The whole time I was there I was wondering what my girlfriend was doing back home. One morning I woke up and had a panic attack. I had no idea what was going on but I told my aunt I had to go home which I did. I had an idea it was something mental so as soon as I got home I went to the library and looked up mental disorders and saw something called "Neurosis" and told myself that's what I have. I felt a lot better knowing what it was and it just kinda went away on it's own. But over the years it would come and go again. When I retired from a job I had for 25 yrs. and my current girlfriend started acting like she didn't love me anymore, it came back (after a break of about 10 yrs.) I told myself, oh it won't last long, but it has - for about the last twelve yrs. Some days are better of course, but it's still here. But I'm on a new medicine that seems to help some so I'm doing the best I can.