Depression! Arghh!

[BeachPreachr]

I awakened this morning at 0430 and thought to myself the same thing I think every morning; ANOTHER day. Why? Why am I still here? How long will I have to endure this punishment? This prison.

Living depressed is the pits, the darkness, the unending sorrow that everyday brings is pure torture and torment. I cry out to God daily to no apparent avail. I have peace when I’m asleep, ‘why God’ I put forth the question cannot I not just sleep. Escape this painful existence. At 0530 hrs I’m already counting the hours til I can return to bed, this is a meaningless existence.

[emmi331]

I am so sorry you are going through this. If I may ask, are you taking medication for this and seeing a therapist? It's possible you need to talk to your doctor about tweaking or changing your medication.

I went through something like this for several months last year, with anxiety into the bargain! And like you, sleep was my escape. Finally the right medication made a difference. Please don't give up, my friend.

[BeachPreachr in reply to emmi331]

Yes ma’am I’m on BREXPIPRAZOLE, Duluxetine and just got back on Aripiprozole (sp?) My third day on the latter and today was a great day. I have appointment with psych.

[suz70]

I have depression as well and I have been as low as you sound to be. There really isnt anything solid to help us as the treatments for depression are moderately effective at best. I just came home from a walk as I keep trying to do the recommended diet and exercise as best I can. I am trying to do this all the time to see if it will actually help. I just wanted to tell you youre not alone in your suffering. I would not dare to try to cheer you up as it really is futile to someone in the throwscof depression. I just wanted to also say that I care and I will pray for your suffering to end.

[BeachPreachr in reply to suz70]

Oh dear sister you understand our plight and God Bless you for caring. I have found out that there are many of us who most unfortunately suffer from this dreadful condition. I’m glad you were able to get out and walk.

[Blue_81]

Im going through this as well. Every morning I wake up early to tackle another day. Just counting the hours to go back to sleep. When I sleep that is where I feel the best. Nothing to think or worry about. Everything just shuts down. Mornings are definitely the hardest to get through. Wishing healing for all of us.

[Hidden]

I would say you need to get involved in something you feel passionate about. I’m rather depressed myself. Tired of feeling broke. And I’m spending too much time on this website, it’s addictive.